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I miss Jam cruise so fucking much. I miss all the amazing friends I met on the boat and I miss that connection with music and people that I felt for 5 days straight. I miss knowing that I was safe and that reality didn't exist for those 5 days. I miss not caring and not thinking about life at all and feeling the music running through my veins.
Jam cruise could be the best and worst of me. It really just like mixed up every fucking priority I have. I've never felt as happy as I did when I was around the most incredible people I've ever met in my life. I've never felt so complete as I did in the middle of the ocean, dancing down the hallways and in the elevators. Even when there was no music going, we all just went crazy and had parties EVERYWHERE.
Jam cruise is definitely the best and worst thing that's ever happened to me.
Best, because it was the best week of my life. I discovered my crazy insane passion for good music. I felt what every other person was feeling on that boat. Every single person is so in sync with each other.. there's never an awkward moment and when you think it's about to be, it turns into something extremely hilarious and another a great memory comes of it. I miss the fact that no matter where I was on the ship, if I sat down at a table.. those people were new friends.. new people to add to my Jam cruise family which is growing rapidly!
And it could be the worst of me because now I just hate reality. I hate what life is when I'm not on that boat. And all I can think about is escaping this world of money problems and drama.. and feeling hurt and despair. It's such a fucking kick in the face coming back into this world. There is no sadness.. there is no hate.. there are no problems.. there's no drama.. there's nothing bad or stressful on Jam cruise. It's just a world of madness and fun, and dancing.. amazing music and people. I wish everyone could understand, but they can't. No one can understand until they actually go on it. It's really life changing. It completely destroyed my priorities in life.
I remember being 14 years old and listening to the most retarded shit ever. My favorite bands were those bands that play warped tour that used three fucking chords throughout 8 different songs with idiotic "emo" lyrics being sung over the same shit over and over. And I wanted so badly to be apart of that scene and know that music. I tried really hard to get into it and get into different bands. But it wasn't ANYTHING to me. I always tried to get into music before.. My passion for dance is so great that I wanted music to be just as much apart of it. I wanted to fit in with the scene kids and know about the latest idie and poppunk bands.
I am so greatful to be shown the light. I am so happy that the same poppunk and screamo bands that I used to listen to now make my ears bleed. When you're out in the middle of the ocean, and you're talking to Skerik or Zach Deputy and all of a sudden it's 6 in the morning and a random jam busts out with 1 saxophone on the pool deck and you turn to look around and people start to gather.. all of a sudden, someone comes through with a guitar.. and oh man! there's a girl on the fiddle.. 2 minutes later, you've got someone that found bongos and a harmonica.. and people are banging on tables and walls.. and zach deputy is beatboxing over it. OMG. IT'S SO MAGICAL. I'm getting goosebumps thinking about how incredible and mindblowing it is to watch music be made that way. How 1 saxophone can turn into 5 different instruments and 20 people dancing and beating on random shit to find their way to the beat and heart of the improved jam that just started happening. It's really special.
And everyone always says it's something about the boat. It's something about the environment and the love that engulfs the music and people. Musicians play better than they ever would. Musicians put it down harder than they ever have. They play so incredibly amazing. They feel something inside them that you can't feel anywhere else. It's the magic of Jam cruise. It's something you honestly feel in your soul. You become one with the music and the people around you. Your smile can be seen from across the room and that person that catches a glimpse, feels the same exact power and connection that you feel towards the bongos beating and my favorite, the bluesy sounds of the harmonica. It's unlike anything else you could ever experience.
It's insane to have such a large group of people that just live and breathe music all gathered in the middle of the ocean, away from everything and everyone. Your problems don't exist. Nothing else exists but your love for the music and your newfound love for the new people that you meet everyday, every hour, every minute on the boat.
I hate reality so fucking much. I wish Jamcruise sailed all year long and I could just work my ass off for a couple of months and get right back on the boat.. and then work my ass off for another couple months.. and get right back on the boat.
I remember when makeup and hair used to be the one thing in my life that I felt like I was good at. I remember when I used to spend hours with a flat iron and massive amounts of product and constantly checking the mirror to see if I looked okay. My priorities were so fucking different. I woke up a couple hours earlier than needed just to make sure my makeup and hair was perfect. jesus christ. I remember always trying so hard to fit in.. or in my case, stand out so that I could be noticed. And paying like 50 bucks for a show where I would be pushed and shoved in the middle of a crowd and possibly get a bloody lip from being punch edin the face by some idiot trying to start a moshpit. ugh. haaateee that shit.
And now? My hair is a wavey mess more than half the time and i don't care. I never wear makeup unless I feel like it's absolutely neccessary. I put on a dress and flip flops and i'm totally good to go! i realized that I don't have to fucking spend 2 hours getting ready in the morning. Being comfortable feels so much better and I'm not self conscience at all about it anymore. I used to feel that all the time. And when I go to shows now, it's just fun loving, light hearted hippies that get together and dance all funny and enjoy the music that you only have to pay like $10 for. It's crazy how much better this scene is.. there's no stress or drama.. like there always seems to be with other people, and it's just fun all the time.
I've turned into a free spirit, haha. Jam cruise really made me who I am today. I realized that there are way more important things than makeup and hairspray.
But I'm so depressed about not seeing music all hours of the day and night. And I'm so sick about all my friends on jam cruise being from different places and knowing that i'll only see the most amazing people ever , once a year.
I used to want to be this insanely awesome hairdresser.
now? I just want to do something that will let me travel. All I do is look up where festivals are and try to figure out if i have enough time to get to it. Because even though it's not jam cruise, it's still another place where music lovers gather and i might run into someone from Jam cruise. Everyone that's on jam cruise goes to all sorts of crazy festivals all over the world. I remember talking to so many different people and they would be from new york, california, minnesota, australia, new zealand.. new jersey.. like EVERYWHERE. ALL OVER... and they would tell me about wakarusa or coachella.. burning man.. bear creek.. all sorts of fun and music! and it just sounds so amazing.
Right now, I just need to get a good paying job.. hopefully in a bar or club.. and save save save. that's what i'm going to do. I'm going to save up all my fucking money and travel and go to festivals and do it up soo big! I want to see my friends again.. more than just once a year. My mind is always running and it's just in the "i miss jam cruise" state.
the week after I got back.. I was so fucking depressed. I just felt like wow.. life sucks. It's so weird to come back to this. I hate it. I just want to skip over the whole year and get back on the fucking boat.
I never thought in my life that a cruise would end up being a top priority hahahaha. I know it sounds fucking crazy, but I met probably 50 people on the boat and had this conversation with almost every person.
"dude.. this is the best thing ever."
"i know!! you could never ask for anything more!"
"dude.. this is my top priority.. i would skip everything else in life just to get on this boat."
"DUDE ME TOO."
"Yeah, all my friends get so sick of me talking about it.. but I can't help being obsessed. I fucking love this boat."
"yeah man.. my friends tell me to shut up about it all the time, and i just wish they would take my advice and get on jam cruise."
"yeah it changed my life."
"omg.. i'm a completely different person because of jam cruise!!"
"ME TOO"
It ALWAYS went that way with like everyone. Even on the boat, everyone just talks about how awesome it is.. because it's just incredible. Everyone feels the same fucking way I do!
I met this guy greg, and he started a "jam cruise addicts" page on facebook right when we got back. IT's been two weeks and there are already like 500 members. and on the info page it says "Those on land, just don't understand!!" and it's fucking true. you guys won't get it until you fucking experience it.
And the craziest thing about it is last year.. my first year.. i remember matthew and i were getting on the boat. we were on the rail that was leading up to it.. and right when we stepped foot on the ship. he stopped me and he was like. "Chelsea.. you're this person right now.. but when you get off this ship, you will be a completely different person". And i was like "WHAT? WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?!" And matt just laughed and he was like.. "You'll understand by tomorrow night, I promise you"
And sure enough.. Lotus was on the pool deck and I kinda got tricked into dropping some acid like an hour before for the first time.. and as I was in the middle of the dance floor, my hat dropped over my eyes for like 5 minutes and I litterally became the music. My whole world just changed in that moment. I was the music. My heart and soul was engulfed by it. I changed as a person right then and there. In those hours that I was tripping face, laughing at everything and nothing, and dancing my fucking ass off to every show.. I just understood. I understood what music is and how it felt. I became the Chelsea that I am, right now. It's crazy.. I remember the EXACT moment when my hat fell over my eyes and all that mattered was the music. my soul just opened up and became alive. I was finally fucking alive and I understood.
But of course.. all good things come to an end. And walking off that boat, I remember turning to matt and just saying "I get it now." And he knew exactly what I meant. And when I talk to people that I meet.. they all have stories to tell about their Jam cruise moment that was life changing.. mine just happened to be when Lotus was playing on the pool deck haha.
ANYWAY.
Life sucks. I need a job. I need to make money, pay bills, and get a place. OH! and save up so I can put down my fucking deposit for jam cruise next year
I kinda wanna find a roomie so that I can get a cabin with a balcony, because it's so fucking worth it to get a balcony.. but then again, i had so much fucking fun in the singles program and it was fucking AWESOME to just be by myself and do whatever the fuck I wanted to do.
My girlfriend, Alisa.. who I met at RPM art.. she loves all the same music as me. She loves going to all the events.. she loves everything i do. We're like the same person, except I'm a little theatrical and loud and she's super laid back. But I know that she would be the PERFECT roomie for jam cruise.. the PERFECT partner in crime for me. And after this year's jam cruise, I'm going to be so fucking prepared for next year. I'm bringing music and lights and everything so that I can host parties in my room.. that's if I can get Alisa to room with me.. I'm hoping sooo hard that she will just take my advice and spend the 1500 to go. I really fucking hope she does. We would have so much fucking fun, and she would LOVE all my friends.
We'll see.. we have until April to prebook. If you prebook, you get a choice of cabins!! ..like where the cabin is and everything.. and I have all my friends' facebooks and contact info from last year, so I'm going to set it up so we're all neighbors!! it's going to be absolutely incredible.
next year will fucking top this year just like this year topped last year.. i know for a fact that it will just keep getting better and better.
i can't fucking wait.. only like 340 something days left! hahah
Jam cruise could be the best and worst of me. It really just like mixed up every fucking priority I have. I've never felt as happy as I did when I was around the most incredible people I've ever met in my life. I've never felt so complete as I did in the middle of the ocean, dancing down the hallways and in the elevators. Even when there was no music going, we all just went crazy and had parties EVERYWHERE.
Jam cruise is definitely the best and worst thing that's ever happened to me.
Best, because it was the best week of my life. I discovered my crazy insane passion for good music. I felt what every other person was feeling on that boat. Every single person is so in sync with each other.. there's never an awkward moment and when you think it's about to be, it turns into something extremely hilarious and another a great memory comes of it. I miss the fact that no matter where I was on the ship, if I sat down at a table.. those people were new friends.. new people to add to my Jam cruise family which is growing rapidly!
And it could be the worst of me because now I just hate reality. I hate what life is when I'm not on that boat. And all I can think about is escaping this world of money problems and drama.. and feeling hurt and despair. It's such a fucking kick in the face coming back into this world. There is no sadness.. there is no hate.. there are no problems.. there's no drama.. there's nothing bad or stressful on Jam cruise. It's just a world of madness and fun, and dancing.. amazing music and people. I wish everyone could understand, but they can't. No one can understand until they actually go on it. It's really life changing. It completely destroyed my priorities in life.
I remember being 14 years old and listening to the most retarded shit ever. My favorite bands were those bands that play warped tour that used three fucking chords throughout 8 different songs with idiotic "emo" lyrics being sung over the same shit over and over. And I wanted so badly to be apart of that scene and know that music. I tried really hard to get into it and get into different bands. But it wasn't ANYTHING to me. I always tried to get into music before.. My passion for dance is so great that I wanted music to be just as much apart of it. I wanted to fit in with the scene kids and know about the latest idie and poppunk bands.
I am so greatful to be shown the light. I am so happy that the same poppunk and screamo bands that I used to listen to now make my ears bleed. When you're out in the middle of the ocean, and you're talking to Skerik or Zach Deputy and all of a sudden it's 6 in the morning and a random jam busts out with 1 saxophone on the pool deck and you turn to look around and people start to gather.. all of a sudden, someone comes through with a guitar.. and oh man! there's a girl on the fiddle.. 2 minutes later, you've got someone that found bongos and a harmonica.. and people are banging on tables and walls.. and zach deputy is beatboxing over it. OMG. IT'S SO MAGICAL. I'm getting goosebumps thinking about how incredible and mindblowing it is to watch music be made that way. How 1 saxophone can turn into 5 different instruments and 20 people dancing and beating on random shit to find their way to the beat and heart of the improved jam that just started happening. It's really special.
And everyone always says it's something about the boat. It's something about the environment and the love that engulfs the music and people. Musicians play better than they ever would. Musicians put it down harder than they ever have. They play so incredibly amazing. They feel something inside them that you can't feel anywhere else. It's the magic of Jam cruise. It's something you honestly feel in your soul. You become one with the music and the people around you. Your smile can be seen from across the room and that person that catches a glimpse, feels the same exact power and connection that you feel towards the bongos beating and my favorite, the bluesy sounds of the harmonica. It's unlike anything else you could ever experience.
It's insane to have such a large group of people that just live and breathe music all gathered in the middle of the ocean, away from everything and everyone. Your problems don't exist. Nothing else exists but your love for the music and your newfound love for the new people that you meet everyday, every hour, every minute on the boat.
I hate reality so fucking much. I wish Jamcruise sailed all year long and I could just work my ass off for a couple of months and get right back on the boat.. and then work my ass off for another couple months.. and get right back on the boat.
I remember when makeup and hair used to be the one thing in my life that I felt like I was good at. I remember when I used to spend hours with a flat iron and massive amounts of product and constantly checking the mirror to see if I looked okay. My priorities were so fucking different. I woke up a couple hours earlier than needed just to make sure my makeup and hair was perfect. jesus christ. I remember always trying so hard to fit in.. or in my case, stand out so that I could be noticed. And paying like 50 bucks for a show where I would be pushed and shoved in the middle of a crowd and possibly get a bloody lip from being punch edin the face by some idiot trying to start a moshpit. ugh. haaateee that shit.
And now? My hair is a wavey mess more than half the time and i don't care. I never wear makeup unless I feel like it's absolutely neccessary. I put on a dress and flip flops and i'm totally good to go! i realized that I don't have to fucking spend 2 hours getting ready in the morning. Being comfortable feels so much better and I'm not self conscience at all about it anymore. I used to feel that all the time. And when I go to shows now, it's just fun loving, light hearted hippies that get together and dance all funny and enjoy the music that you only have to pay like $10 for. It's crazy how much better this scene is.. there's no stress or drama.. like there always seems to be with other people, and it's just fun all the time.
I've turned into a free spirit, haha. Jam cruise really made me who I am today. I realized that there are way more important things than makeup and hairspray.
But I'm so depressed about not seeing music all hours of the day and night. And I'm so sick about all my friends on jam cruise being from different places and knowing that i'll only see the most amazing people ever , once a year.
I used to want to be this insanely awesome hairdresser.
now? I just want to do something that will let me travel. All I do is look up where festivals are and try to figure out if i have enough time to get to it. Because even though it's not jam cruise, it's still another place where music lovers gather and i might run into someone from Jam cruise. Everyone that's on jam cruise goes to all sorts of crazy festivals all over the world. I remember talking to so many different people and they would be from new york, california, minnesota, australia, new zealand.. new jersey.. like EVERYWHERE. ALL OVER... and they would tell me about wakarusa or coachella.. burning man.. bear creek.. all sorts of fun and music! and it just sounds so amazing.
Right now, I just need to get a good paying job.. hopefully in a bar or club.. and save save save. that's what i'm going to do. I'm going to save up all my fucking money and travel and go to festivals and do it up soo big! I want to see my friends again.. more than just once a year. My mind is always running and it's just in the "i miss jam cruise" state.
the week after I got back.. I was so fucking depressed. I just felt like wow.. life sucks. It's so weird to come back to this. I hate it. I just want to skip over the whole year and get back on the fucking boat.
I never thought in my life that a cruise would end up being a top priority hahahaha. I know it sounds fucking crazy, but I met probably 50 people on the boat and had this conversation with almost every person.
"dude.. this is the best thing ever."
"i know!! you could never ask for anything more!"
"dude.. this is my top priority.. i would skip everything else in life just to get on this boat."
"DUDE ME TOO."
"Yeah, all my friends get so sick of me talking about it.. but I can't help being obsessed. I fucking love this boat."
"yeah man.. my friends tell me to shut up about it all the time, and i just wish they would take my advice and get on jam cruise."
"yeah it changed my life."
"omg.. i'm a completely different person because of jam cruise!!"
"ME TOO"
It ALWAYS went that way with like everyone. Even on the boat, everyone just talks about how awesome it is.. because it's just incredible. Everyone feels the same fucking way I do!
I met this guy greg, and he started a "jam cruise addicts" page on facebook right when we got back. IT's been two weeks and there are already like 500 members. and on the info page it says "Those on land, just don't understand!!" and it's fucking true. you guys won't get it until you fucking experience it.
And the craziest thing about it is last year.. my first year.. i remember matthew and i were getting on the boat. we were on the rail that was leading up to it.. and right when we stepped foot on the ship. he stopped me and he was like. "Chelsea.. you're this person right now.. but when you get off this ship, you will be a completely different person". And i was like "WHAT? WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?!" And matt just laughed and he was like.. "You'll understand by tomorrow night, I promise you"
And sure enough.. Lotus was on the pool deck and I kinda got tricked into dropping some acid like an hour before for the first time.. and as I was in the middle of the dance floor, my hat dropped over my eyes for like 5 minutes and I litterally became the music. My whole world just changed in that moment. I was the music. My heart and soul was engulfed by it. I changed as a person right then and there. In those hours that I was tripping face, laughing at everything and nothing, and dancing my fucking ass off to every show.. I just understood. I understood what music is and how it felt. I became the Chelsea that I am, right now. It's crazy.. I remember the EXACT moment when my hat fell over my eyes and all that mattered was the music. my soul just opened up and became alive. I was finally fucking alive and I understood.
But of course.. all good things come to an end. And walking off that boat, I remember turning to matt and just saying "I get it now." And he knew exactly what I meant. And when I talk to people that I meet.. they all have stories to tell about their Jam cruise moment that was life changing.. mine just happened to be when Lotus was playing on the pool deck haha.
ANYWAY.
Life sucks. I need a job. I need to make money, pay bills, and get a place. OH! and save up so I can put down my fucking deposit for jam cruise next year
I kinda wanna find a roomie so that I can get a cabin with a balcony, because it's so fucking worth it to get a balcony.. but then again, i had so much fucking fun in the singles program and it was fucking AWESOME to just be by myself and do whatever the fuck I wanted to do.
My girlfriend, Alisa.. who I met at RPM art.. she loves all the same music as me. She loves going to all the events.. she loves everything i do. We're like the same person, except I'm a little theatrical and loud and she's super laid back. But I know that she would be the PERFECT roomie for jam cruise.. the PERFECT partner in crime for me. And after this year's jam cruise, I'm going to be so fucking prepared for next year. I'm bringing music and lights and everything so that I can host parties in my room.. that's if I can get Alisa to room with me.. I'm hoping sooo hard that she will just take my advice and spend the 1500 to go. I really fucking hope she does. We would have so much fucking fun, and she would LOVE all my friends.
We'll see.. we have until April to prebook. If you prebook, you get a choice of cabins!! ..like where the cabin is and everything.. and I have all my friends' facebooks and contact info from last year, so I'm going to set it up so we're all neighbors!! it's going to be absolutely incredible.
next year will fucking top this year just like this year topped last year.. i know for a fact that it will just keep getting better and better.
i can't fucking wait.. only like 340 something days left! hahah