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I don't really know what I feel about everything.
It's like everything in my life.. my whole body.. my existence tells me that I really need to get Matthew completely out of my life. But then again, my heart and soul tells me I'm in love with him hardcore and I just can't let go of him.
I know we're really bad for each other.. or at least, he's bad for me. I feel like he's holding me back.. and on top of that, it's just really hard to get shit done when all I'm always doing is wondering about what he's doing or where he is or anything like that. And it's just really hard because we both don't have jobs and shit so I'm just like wasting away my life.
Ugh. I don't know what the fuck is going on with my papers. It doesn't make any sense to me. I have a couple of salons that are interested in taking me.
I'm nervous.
I'm 20 years old and I'm totally really about to start my life and my career. It's so annoying and scarey.
It's like everything in my life.. my whole body.. my existence tells me that I really need to get Matthew completely out of my life. But then again, my heart and soul tells me I'm in love with him hardcore and I just can't let go of him.
I know we're really bad for each other.. or at least, he's bad for me. I feel like he's holding me back.. and on top of that, it's just really hard to get shit done when all I'm always doing is wondering about what he's doing or where he is or anything like that. And it's just really hard because we both don't have jobs and shit so I'm just like wasting away my life.
Ugh. I don't know what the fuck is going on with my papers. It doesn't make any sense to me. I have a couple of salons that are interested in taking me.
I'm nervous.
I'm 20 years old and I'm totally really about to start my life and my career. It's so annoying and scarey.