Maybe I should hate you for this..
umm... my life... well really no new developments... everyday is a chain of events linked to the day before and so on and each day the chain grows longer, I hope i run out of links soon... I've been more emo lately... not like slit my wrist emo... cause I'm much more creative destructive than that.... sometime I feel like just letting my fucking car fly off the bridges I cross or maybe just letting go of the wheel going 90 on the freeway... but then reason fear grabs hold of me and I start thinking of all the things that made me feel like I needed an escape in the first place... and I can't repress these feelings, the only thing I can do is hold back the tears... but the thoughts run rampant in my mind... consuming my everyday life and strangling my small joys... I miss him... I hate myself for needing him... and I hate the fact that I'm still living with no purpose...
Nice Things
My birthday was nice with the exception of my mom being herself... amber, jen and I went to the victoria gardens and chilled.... I love those girls... I got really cool thing for my bday.... I got a rad batman shirt, a backpack, Frankly Scarlet blush from MAC, a gift certificate to the edge, The Unicorns' CD, a Purse that says "fuck you" on it, a new DTD poster, Goldbit Eyeshadow from MAC, ticket to see Thrice.TheBled.Underoath in october and Aquadisiac eyeshadow from MAC... yeah pretty nice gifts...
amber and I went to brea yesterday to get our frankly scarlet blush.. then after we picked up adrian and went to chipotle and to watch the brothers grimm.. that movie was good... then they dropped me off at home and I went to mercede's house cause they were having a goodbye thingy for alan... yeah it sucked not being able to be piss drunk or drunk at all for that matter but whatever... it was like whatever... I just started to miss gene... I don't know why... but yeah...
today I took marty his movie... yeah I only dropped it off... and I gave him a hug and I left... then I met my dearest cousins michelle and adriana and the everso lovely vincent at the mo val mall... then we went over to tyler to chillax... then we went to chipotle and to the movies but vinney didn't stay for the movies... we watched the skeleton key... that movie is a trip like woah.... yah good shit... and now I sit here listening to underoath...
<3
Ruby
Nice Things
My birthday was nice with the exception of my mom being herself... amber, jen and I went to the victoria gardens and chilled.... I love those girls... I got really cool thing for my bday.... I got a rad batman shirt, a backpack, Frankly Scarlet blush from MAC, a gift certificate to the edge, The Unicorns' CD, a Purse that says "fuck you" on it, a new DTD poster, Goldbit Eyeshadow from MAC, ticket to see Thrice.TheBled.Underoath in october and Aquadisiac eyeshadow from MAC... yeah pretty nice gifts...
amber and I went to brea yesterday to get our frankly scarlet blush.. then after we picked up adrian and went to chipotle and to watch the brothers grimm.. that movie was good... then they dropped me off at home and I went to mercede's house cause they were having a goodbye thingy for alan... yeah it sucked not being able to be piss drunk or drunk at all for that matter but whatever... it was like whatever... I just started to miss gene... I don't know why... but yeah...
today I took marty his movie... yeah I only dropped it off... and I gave him a hug and I left... then I met my dearest cousins michelle and adriana and the everso lovely vincent at the mo val mall... then we went over to tyler to chillax... then we went to chipotle and to the movies but vinney didn't stay for the movies... we watched the skeleton key... that movie is a trip like woah.... yah good shit... and now I sit here listening to underoath...
<3
Ruby