When You Live In A Nightmare... Its Written All Over Your Face!
so two nights ago I had the most fucked up dream.... and I can't seem to get it out of my head... so my dream... I dreamt that I was at that party and gene showed up with another girl and and I wanted to kill her... oh man as my dream played on he was with her and I was like I don't care if youre with her I just want you to leave her... basically I was being psycho bitch... but the more I think about it... thats probably how I would act if really happend... I love Him so fucking much... and its fucking killing me... fuck... why did I let him in??? fuck I've never ever felt this way... oh my fucking goodness this is ridiculous... who ever said that loving someone is a choice obviously has never loved... fuck yeah its a choice to let them in but after that you have no fucking control... fuck why would anyone choose to feel this way? I feel so fucked up... gad.... fuck I can say that I'm cool with giving him time to get his life straight and all I want from him is for him to be around... but the truth is I want him to be mine! fuck!!! someone shoot me now put me out of my misery...
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Ruby
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Ruby