so lets see who reads this..
Its stats again, can u feel it, it takes ur breath away...
Well, 5 months all to hear the words.." i am not planning on us"
so i knew it was coming, and i was fine with it for a week, but low and behold, we both knew i wasnt going to be okay. So i told him i cant talk to him, its to hard. How do u say good bye when u dont want to? it sucks. he is still my best friend, and i still love him. but i cant even look at him without wanting to cry. and hit him and make him feel bad. maybe he will want me while im gone. maybe he will love me again. doubt it. but i know i cant move on. i just am not over him. and wont be. he was to perfect for me. There is no one better. maybe for him, but not for me. He was the better. he was the dead end. I had no where else to go. I finally Found what i wanted, and now he isnt there. Because " he cant" idk. how do u stp loving someone? could that even happen?
it was so perfect. how do u just stop. i wish i could just stp like he did. maybe then i could feel real again. and be happy for longer then 3 class periods. It kills me to think that i have to not see him, and not talk to him, to get over him. how sad is that. I dont know what is easier sitting here wndering what he is doing all the time, or actually talking to him and trying to be his friend. He doesnt put much effort into me, so why should i?. i think i just got tired of him, of this drama, or being alone. ah idk. im done..