the burn of, always and forever..
So, lets start out by saying yesterday i went to the doctor, and i got diagnosed with Strep THroat! thats why i didnt go to school today. suck. ha.
So i am sitting here watching made, and loving the fact that is 12:06 and i only got up like 2 hours ago..aww isnt it nice. ha :-)
My mommy is going to get me some brownies. yum. and i think somenoe should come visit me, and bring me some soup!
so to me emo point of the day,
He is still my best friend, it just isnt fair. but Ya know im use to it. he still makes me laugh, and smile. just it isnt the same. I think we are slowly drifting, because i am not putting any effort into me and him anymore. if he really cares like he says he will see if i am okay. and not have me bring it up. but i still love him. and he is lovely. no matter what happens :-)
Just wish u didnt fade away from me..
But i am just coming to the conclusion that we need to talk. ha i just want to hang out. and ah just you never understand that i would be much better off if we hung out every once in a while as friends, then not hanging out at all. cause that is what kills me. ha, its okay. i forgive u. i really do, thats why people think im crazy. My close friends day i dont deserve what you do to me, but it isnt entirely ur fault. and then the ppl that know both me and u good. well they just say i need to move on, but anyone who has loved someone, like really loved someone then know it isnt that easy.
ha im lame dude, dont read this. just everything will be okay, everything is okay, i just need some answers, and so does he. thats all :-)
I just miss the old him. he was so lovelyer back then.
people change, feelings fade, but memories stay forever.
I love you. always and forever.
and thanks to all my friends who have stuck by me, and tryed to deal with my stubborn self. when they know i just wont let go. im sorry i dont listen, i just have to convince myself first, someone cant tell me what i should do. they can just...try to make me listen. but i really appreciate it. and im sorry for being so difficult...
and my advice is, if u are going to wait for someone, make sure there fully worth it. and treat you like u are suppost to be treated. when u think about them i hope u dont ever havea thought of well, he makes me cry all the time.. cause that isnt worth it. he should never make u cry.
:-)
So i am sitting here watching made, and loving the fact that is 12:06 and i only got up like 2 hours ago..aww isnt it nice. ha :-)
My mommy is going to get me some brownies. yum. and i think somenoe should come visit me, and bring me some soup!
so to me emo point of the day,
He is still my best friend, it just isnt fair. but Ya know im use to it. he still makes me laugh, and smile. just it isnt the same. I think we are slowly drifting, because i am not putting any effort into me and him anymore. if he really cares like he says he will see if i am okay. and not have me bring it up. but i still love him. and he is lovely. no matter what happens :-)
Just wish u didnt fade away from me..
But i am just coming to the conclusion that we need to talk. ha i just want to hang out. and ah just you never understand that i would be much better off if we hung out every once in a while as friends, then not hanging out at all. cause that is what kills me. ha, its okay. i forgive u. i really do, thats why people think im crazy. My close friends day i dont deserve what you do to me, but it isnt entirely ur fault. and then the ppl that know both me and u good. well they just say i need to move on, but anyone who has loved someone, like really loved someone then know it isnt that easy.
ha im lame dude, dont read this. just everything will be okay, everything is okay, i just need some answers, and so does he. thats all :-)
I just miss the old him. he was so lovelyer back then.
people change, feelings fade, but memories stay forever.
I love you. always and forever.
and thanks to all my friends who have stuck by me, and tryed to deal with my stubborn self. when they know i just wont let go. im sorry i dont listen, i just have to convince myself first, someone cant tell me what i should do. they can just...try to make me listen. but i really appreciate it. and im sorry for being so difficult...
and my advice is, if u are going to wait for someone, make sure there fully worth it. and treat you like u are suppost to be treated. when u think about them i hope u dont ever havea thought of well, he makes me cry all the time.. cause that isnt worth it. he should never make u cry.
:-)