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[underspinlights]

God. I really don't think I've had a day this depressing in a while. Everyone's at church right now so I have no one to talk to so I'm venting on livejournal, sorry.

Let's just say that I have never had so many thoughts about suicide in one day. I know that I would never cut or shoot myself. That's just not my style. I just want to take the car and

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[xalmostawesomex]

hey i know i see you in the halls quite a bit now but i never really say anything because i feel so weird like you'll think im a stalker or something... hah idk but its weird cus then i read your livejournal and feel like i just want to talk to you and be there for you.

and to be honest with you... i understand a lot of what you've said. this entry describes so much of what i've been feeling... and i'm so tired of it... because i dont feel like its just a phase anymore. you grow out of phases. i feel like ive been stuck in this for longer than i know how to remember... and its like this constant pain and i just pray and pray and i'm like God please help and it gets so hard and you begin to lose faith.

i cant say that it gets better
because why, i have no freakin idea how all of this will end.
but i can say that you're not alone
even when you feel like it the most.
but i do hope in the cell of my heart that it DOES get better.
and if not, i am here to talk...
regardless of the fact that we're not like BF4L or anything... i think we all need somebody who understands.

♥
mad love girl

[underspinlights]

Kate,

please don't ever feel like you can't come up to me. I never want anyone to feel that way at all. I pretty much feel the same way about you too though. It's so silly.

Next time I see you I am definetly going to say hi and we should hang out sometime bc, agreed, we all need someone who understands.

I will pray for you <333 Meg