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maybe ill regret this later in life..
god i hope not.
well im stuck in the house all week, with being suspended..ppl talking shit at school..i have a bladder infection ++ my period. my grandparents arent very happy with me...&& i dont get to see really the only person i want to see.
& im not very happy with it..
when im mad or upset i take it out on pretty much everyone i talk to..&& its usually the people that i really dont need to be doing that to the most. i hate the fact that i cant go a couple days without seeing my boyfriend. i cried at least 3 times today. everytime i got off the phone with him because we would get off on bad terms.
i hate that.
even more i hate the fact that its my fault.
i called my mom, whenever i feel like shit she makes me feel so much better. i was thinkin about it today && i realized alot. throught all the shit ive been through with that woman i love her more than anything.. we're really close now, closer than ever..&& we dont even talk or see eachother that much but thats a good thing with us. when we lived together all we did was bump heads && fight && i hated her. but no matter what shes going thru && the fact that her phone gets turned off like every other week..she will still listen to me whine && try to make me feel better...when my problems will be gone next week...she has constant things to worry about..&& so much more shit going on in her life..but she still wants to hear about my life..&& why im upset && try to make me feel better.
i still think about what would my life woulda been like if my dad was around
i was in the car the other day with my aunt smokin a cigarette &&shes like if your dad was still here he woulda killed me letting you do this..
i dunno i guess im done venting..
time for ice cream..