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where has my head gone
Im usually very creative. As of lately, i have this feeling that my skills are leaving me. I really dont know what it is, but i just think somedays, "have i made the wrong move, in my career choice?" Im sure everyone feels that now and again. I dont know if its just stress, or something more than i can even begin to understand. I always used to feel so creative around you. You made me believe i could do anything. Now i am always second guessing myself. I sometimes think that i am a force to be reckoned with, when it comes to my creative abilities... but as of lately, im starting to look at myself in a different light, i feel different, and i think other people are starting to react to me in different ways.
I wonder where i have been all these years. Its like the time has flown by, and ive not grown at all. I wish i could go... to where i dont know... but i wish i could go. I always feel the same. I wish something would bend, and give me some kind of reaction. I have felt like a stone gargoyle my entire life. Ive always been hard and stiff around the edges... When i was with you, that all went away. It was like you softened me to a better life. A better me. Over the last couple years, its like i can feel myself slipping away, i dont know if its slipping away from myself... or who im with. I just know that im not with you. I feel it everyday.
Its starting to get cold again. The cold where you feel all alone inside, if you've got no-one to keep you warm. My body has always been full of warmth, but as of recently... ive started to become cold. Almost bitter. My body hurts.
Where has my head gone, its strange how your not with me, where has my head gone... did i lose your heart key?