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And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty
You’re strong
I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on
But I feel like givin’ in
But still You’re with me
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me
I know I’m broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me
And even though I feel so lonely
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through
The storm
God you are firm when I waver. I'm feelin' down, I'm feeling broken. I need You, I will cling to You. I don't even know what to pray. I don't know what to say, how to react. I feel this literal force on my shoulders that is pushing me down. It's pushing and pushing me down and away from you. I won't let it cause me to lose sight of You. I wont let it cause me to stumble, or crumble, or buckle, or give in. I wanted nothing more than to binge drink this afternoon when I heard the news of mams and of heather. I wanted to lose myself in a bottle. But You call me to something so much higher. Something so much greater than anything that this world has to offer. Comfort me. Please, God, comfort me in my time of need. Comfort mom, and ben and dad and mostly paps. Use me in this situation to comfort my family. Teach us to raise our heads and our hopes and look to You. God, I need you. I need you. Meet me in this place and lift my spirits. I will not falter or fall from You. Along with all other trials I've faced in life, bring about a greater sense of who You are in my life. Teach me through this. Here I am, God, here I am.