You Fought Your Way Outta This One
An obligatory "I'm gonna revive you, LJ" post. I do want to start using it again. I've downloaded the app for my phone so I can do it more easily. Lets see how long this stretch goes.
Work shit is getting to me. I had thought the 'pay advance' subtraction from my checks was bullshit. That was until I studied the pay periods and found they had some basis for it. Even still, seeing 10hrs of pay deducted each check for 4 checks is depressing. This Friday is supposed to be the last one like that. Maybe then I'll be a little more at ease with my financial situation. As eased as I can be with how fucked it continues to be.
There was more talk of the move back to Arizona. I wasn't sure what her thoughts were for almost a full day and my imagination ran away with the idea. I feel as if that's where I should be. Not this far from family and friends. That being said, I've met a few great people here. Some I've come to love dearly, and would miss terribly once I've left. I hope once it happens we stay in touch and don't forget the bonds we've made. It sounds cheesy, but its true. Rarely have I met people I was so readily comfortable around, and actually enjoyed the company of. If I could I would take them all with me. Save them from this city. I say save but it doesn't seem that this city sucks their life force like it feels it does to me.
I guess the blame can't be placed entirely on the city. Some has to go to the situation I'm in. Some to the people here. Some to myself. I don't want to give it a chance because I feel AZ is 'home'. Not that things were always so great there. Thinking that makes me believe that its me. Senses Fail said 'If you can't change yourself, change your scenery'. I tried guys. The personal changes are there. I'm not the same guy I was when I left. I wish you could see that. I wish I could remember that sometimes.
I've gotta get to sleep. I slept in this morning when I really shouldn't have. Can't make that mistake again. Life is too short. That's the saying, at least.
Work shit is getting to me. I had thought the 'pay advance' subtraction from my checks was bullshit. That was until I studied the pay periods and found they had some basis for it. Even still, seeing 10hrs of pay deducted each check for 4 checks is depressing. This Friday is supposed to be the last one like that. Maybe then I'll be a little more at ease with my financial situation. As eased as I can be with how fucked it continues to be.
There was more talk of the move back to Arizona. I wasn't sure what her thoughts were for almost a full day and my imagination ran away with the idea. I feel as if that's where I should be. Not this far from family and friends. That being said, I've met a few great people here. Some I've come to love dearly, and would miss terribly once I've left. I hope once it happens we stay in touch and don't forget the bonds we've made. It sounds cheesy, but its true. Rarely have I met people I was so readily comfortable around, and actually enjoyed the company of. If I could I would take them all with me. Save them from this city. I say save but it doesn't seem that this city sucks their life force like it feels it does to me.
I guess the blame can't be placed entirely on the city. Some has to go to the situation I'm in. Some to the people here. Some to myself. I don't want to give it a chance because I feel AZ is 'home'. Not that things were always so great there. Thinking that makes me believe that its me. Senses Fail said 'If you can't change yourself, change your scenery'. I tried guys. The personal changes are there. I'm not the same guy I was when I left. I wish you could see that. I wish I could remember that sometimes.
I've gotta get to sleep. I slept in this morning when I really shouldn't have. Can't make that mistake again. Life is too short. That's the saying, at least.