shadows, lightness/darkness, gimme shelter
i recently returned to Prescott from San Francisco with Jenn, which was a week long trip of marvelousness, getting lost, finding our way, Jenn being a total badass, riding on a double decker bus across the Golden Gate bridge and getting over vertigo by looking up to the top as we raced forward and the wind tangled my hair in knots. being comforted by the company of gay men in the Castro. eating the most excellent food of my life, not getting carded too much, walking up and down incredible hills, views, already thinking of our next trip together. being confronted with my own unease in Haight at night. being frustrated with that. remembering the importance of suspending judgment. getting into other people's movies, seeing who'd get into ours (ask for details). reiterate: eating really, really good food.
now, back in Prescott, i am still reflecting on the things we did and the feelings we had both together and on our own, and i have so much writing left to do about that trip that i want to make time for before school starts and i lose the memories that are still fairly clear. i'm still getting grounded here, but it's great to be back in the mountains and in a rural area as opposed to the city, which i do miss but it was easy for me to feel drained from all the energy that being in the city threw at us.
lately i feel in between stages of myself, and it's very difficult. i feel like i've lost a part of myself as i'm regenerating a new self, but trying to hold on to the positive parts that i want to keep. for some reason i've lost site of my spirituality, and i need to get in touch with trusting again. it is so powerful to be positive.
there are also several people that i need to get in contact with, and if you are one of them, please know that i am thinking of you and will call you as soon as i have the space to do so. there is lots to catch up on and exchange.
Tuesday begins my last year as an undergraduate. then time to figure it out all over again.
here's to every minute being a journey.
now, back in Prescott, i am still reflecting on the things we did and the feelings we had both together and on our own, and i have so much writing left to do about that trip that i want to make time for before school starts and i lose the memories that are still fairly clear. i'm still getting grounded here, but it's great to be back in the mountains and in a rural area as opposed to the city, which i do miss but it was easy for me to feel drained from all the energy that being in the city threw at us.
lately i feel in between stages of myself, and it's very difficult. i feel like i've lost a part of myself as i'm regenerating a new self, but trying to hold on to the positive parts that i want to keep. for some reason i've lost site of my spirituality, and i need to get in touch with trusting again. it is so powerful to be positive.
there are also several people that i need to get in contact with, and if you are one of them, please know that i am thinking of you and will call you as soon as i have the space to do so. there is lots to catch up on and exchange.
Tuesday begins my last year as an undergraduate. then time to figure it out all over again.
here's to every minute being a journey.