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Wow! I don’t even know where to begin. Well ok first let’s start off with the one person who dumped gasoline on this fire.
Lana, How long has it been since we hooked up at Steve’s house? It’s been a while I know that. You keep jumping in, and messing with things in my life and why? Because you wanted more than I did? Steve set us up when I was home because I asked him if he had any lady friends looking for a date but nothing serious. Lana you are the one that wanted more and kept forcing that idea on me. If I would have known you were going to get all “Swimfan” on me (it’s a movie look it up) than I would have turned and ran the other way.
I will admit what I tried to do when I cam home last November was so wrong on so many levels, I don’t even know where to begin on that. But instead of just letting it die Lana you had to build it up and ruin things between my girl and me. Well I’m sorry I take that back now that I look at it if I was looking for some halfhearted “Booty Call” I obviously didn’t really want to be with her.
But no you insist on still going. I will give you one thing if you put half the effort into messing with my life that you do raising your kid you might actually turn out to be a good Mom.
As for “Jumping ship.” Why would I do that? Granted I hate my job and since things with Jess and me have ended more and more things have piled up and I am at one of the lowest points in my life, but it’s not because of you Lana so don’t give yourself that satisfaction. And why would I want out I have a little over a year left so why do anything to ruin the benefits I am going to have when I get out? You did get one thing right nobody really does like me on the ship, but it’s not for what you are guessing and I’ll just leave it at that.
Lana I thought that with you on the brink of becoming a mother I thought you would realize that there is more to life and would grow up, well yet another thing I was wrong about.
Now Jessica I don’t really know what to say. I don’t know what she has told you so I can’t tell you if it is a lie or the truth. The one thing that I do know is true is that I love you so goddamn much. For what it is worth you have made me feel miserable, and with me finding out that my Dad cannot come out to Hawaii and cruise back with me the last week of deployment I lost it and actually shed tears for the first time in a long time. Mostly because this was going to be something special for my Dad and me but also because it was a small combination of losing you again. When you told me that you didn’t care about being with me or not that was probably the most pain I have felt in a long time.
As for what Lana has told you like I said before I can’t tell you what is true and what isn’t so I guess you can believe what you will. And maybe someday you will be willing to ask me if there is truth behind what she said. I have nothing and no one to lose now so why would I need to lie?
Finally for anyone else who is reading this if you want to know the real story of this whole ordeal lemme rephrase if you wanna hear my side of this ordeal feel free to e-mail me.
Adam.Holloway@navy.mil
I really don’t know what else to say, I hope I will see some of you come August.
Lana, How long has it been since we hooked up at Steve’s house? It’s been a while I know that. You keep jumping in, and messing with things in my life and why? Because you wanted more than I did? Steve set us up when I was home because I asked him if he had any lady friends looking for a date but nothing serious. Lana you are the one that wanted more and kept forcing that idea on me. If I would have known you were going to get all “Swimfan” on me (it’s a movie look it up) than I would have turned and ran the other way.
I will admit what I tried to do when I cam home last November was so wrong on so many levels, I don’t even know where to begin on that. But instead of just letting it die Lana you had to build it up and ruin things between my girl and me. Well I’m sorry I take that back now that I look at it if I was looking for some halfhearted “Booty Call” I obviously didn’t really want to be with her.
But no you insist on still going. I will give you one thing if you put half the effort into messing with my life that you do raising your kid you might actually turn out to be a good Mom.
As for “Jumping ship.” Why would I do that? Granted I hate my job and since things with Jess and me have ended more and more things have piled up and I am at one of the lowest points in my life, but it’s not because of you Lana so don’t give yourself that satisfaction. And why would I want out I have a little over a year left so why do anything to ruin the benefits I am going to have when I get out? You did get one thing right nobody really does like me on the ship, but it’s not for what you are guessing and I’ll just leave it at that.
Lana I thought that with you on the brink of becoming a mother I thought you would realize that there is more to life and would grow up, well yet another thing I was wrong about.
Now Jessica I don’t really know what to say. I don’t know what she has told you so I can’t tell you if it is a lie or the truth. The one thing that I do know is true is that I love you so goddamn much. For what it is worth you have made me feel miserable, and with me finding out that my Dad cannot come out to Hawaii and cruise back with me the last week of deployment I lost it and actually shed tears for the first time in a long time. Mostly because this was going to be something special for my Dad and me but also because it was a small combination of losing you again. When you told me that you didn’t care about being with me or not that was probably the most pain I have felt in a long time.
As for what Lana has told you like I said before I can’t tell you what is true and what isn’t so I guess you can believe what you will. And maybe someday you will be willing to ask me if there is truth behind what she said. I have nothing and no one to lose now so why would I need to lie?
Finally for anyone else who is reading this if you want to know the real story of this whole ordeal lemme rephrase if you wanna hear my side of this ordeal feel free to e-mail me.
Adam.Holloway@navy.mil
I really don’t know what else to say, I hope I will see some of you come August.