and i'll never
i wish you could see yourself now. do you remember who you were? what you wanted to be? you're a different person on the internet. the new era of fame. everybody loves you. i loved you first. and yet, thats the same old story. its getting boring and i'm sick of telling it. i don't understand how we've both changed so much. i wish it was october of freshmen year. i wish we still talked. i wish we didn't pretend that we weren't looking at each other during class. a class full of people i once thought were going to be the ones to save me. none of them did. i'm still sitting here in the same place, just a different time. i miss who you used to be. i miss when we were naive, together. i miss when we both were the only ones who understood each other because, basically, we're the same person.
day after day i wonder what it would be like if you had never exited the IM. if i had enough balls to go up to you and say "hi" (i never will). i don't know how to feel about you. i don't know what to think when i look at you. i only wish i knew what you were thinking while you looked at me, thinking i have no idea. that i can't tell. i don't understand why you decided to be exactly like everybody else, but then you say you want to change. you know thats just an excuse, "i'll change tomorrow" (tomorrow never comes). i'll be here when you realize you really want to change. i'm on the other side of the screen, feeling the exact same way.
day after day i wonder what it would be like if you had never exited the IM. if i had enough balls to go up to you and say "hi" (i never will). i don't know how to feel about you. i don't know what to think when i look at you. i only wish i knew what you were thinking while you looked at me, thinking i have no idea. that i can't tell. i don't understand why you decided to be exactly like everybody else, but then you say you want to change. you know thats just an excuse, "i'll change tomorrow" (tomorrow never comes). i'll be here when you realize you really want to change. i'm on the other side of the screen, feeling the exact same way.