J'ai perdu ta confiance!
My latest entries have been sparse, a bit sporadic, and utterly confusing; for that reason alone, I've determined that perhaps I should use some more, dare I say, mesmeric language? (Maybe not.)
I think I've come to the conclusion that I'm always expecting too much. I need to realize what I need and what I don't need. I need to be okay with the now. I can't always look so far ahead that I don't concentrate on my own current development. If I do that, I'm losing progress, not gaining it.
I've also realized that the ship sets sail soon and I don't think I have any inhibitions about it departing, at least, not at this very moment. I know that that sounds very, very heartless, and I'm not sure embarking on the journey will allow me to escape the wretchedness of life, but the future is quite promising. At least, that is what I like to believe. I'm willing to put everything on the line for the betterment of my life. It's all that I can do, right?
Oh, before I forget. I want to have NOTHING to do with anything extroadinarily self-indulgent in my career or personal life. I've come to truly hate people that dedicate their lives to achieving economic status. I've been recently repulsed by how greedy society is, and I want none of the trinkets nor "prizes" (i.e. trophy-wives/husbands) that this world offers. As long as I'm able to share my experiences, give my half-assed two cents, and truly inform/influence people, I should be somewhat content with my existence. I just want to make people more conscience of their surroundings and open their eyes to every last thing that is on this earth. I'm entranced by Africa, Asia, etc. I need to travel, I need to make SOME sort of difference. This may sound stereotypically idealistic, but I gotta do it.
Writing may not be an actual action towards changing things, but the pen is mightier than the sword. I'm hoping.
C'est la vie. Let's get this boat sailin'.
P.S. Here are several pictures updating my life or lack
Halloween skip-day!
dear in headlights- Hermes! I'm quite intimidating in a wife-beater, no?
Interact rally!!! 'nuff said.
Those darn CHS'ers...
SHELTERBOX!
My sister getting nasty at "Punch Pong". Yeah, OKAY.
Kicking some CHS ass at volleyball. It's what Lemon Bay does.
DONE.
I think I've come to the conclusion that I'm always expecting too much. I need to realize what I need and what I don't need. I need to be okay with the now. I can't always look so far ahead that I don't concentrate on my own current development. If I do that, I'm losing progress, not gaining it.
I've also realized that the ship sets sail soon and I don't think I have any inhibitions about it departing, at least, not at this very moment. I know that that sounds very, very heartless, and I'm not sure embarking on the journey will allow me to escape the wretchedness of life, but the future is quite promising. At least, that is what I like to believe. I'm willing to put everything on the line for the betterment of my life. It's all that I can do, right?
Oh, before I forget. I want to have NOTHING to do with anything extroadinarily self-indulgent in my career or personal life. I've come to truly hate people that dedicate their lives to achieving economic status. I've been recently repulsed by how greedy society is, and I want none of the trinkets nor "prizes" (i.e. trophy-wives/husbands) that this world offers. As long as I'm able to share my experiences, give my half-assed two cents, and truly inform/influence people, I should be somewhat content with my existence. I just want to make people more conscience of their surroundings and open their eyes to every last thing that is on this earth. I'm entranced by Africa, Asia, etc. I need to travel, I need to make SOME sort of difference. This may sound stereotypically idealistic, but I gotta do it.
Writing may not be an actual action towards changing things, but the pen is mightier than the sword. I'm hoping.
C'est la vie. Let's get this boat sailin'.
P.S. Here are several pictures updating my life or lack
Halloween skip-day!
dear in headlights- Hermes! I'm quite intimidating in a wife-beater, no?
Interact rally!!! 'nuff said.
Those darn CHS'ers...
SHELTERBOX!
My sister getting nasty at "Punch Pong". Yeah, OKAY.
Kicking some CHS ass at volleyball. It's what Lemon Bay does.
DONE.