St. Patricks Day
St. Patricks day seems like such an odd holiday but any reason to hang out with friends and have a good time if fine with me I suppose. So just met this boy Jordan. Well, no I didn't just meet him I infact met him quite a while ago but we have never hung out outside of school before. But it is st. patricks day, and we planned to hang out! I could not wait. He is tall, skinny, wears awesome hats not to mention when I suggested an adventure he told me he would take me on one eventhough most ppl say ok but make me think of one. Well we hung out and he is really easy going I like that ... we seem to get along. And we ended up talking a lot and I think he is very unique... but... am I ever completely happy with another person.. NO NO NO I am just too picky and expect perfection. I am not going to dislike him because he is not everything I dreamed of. No I like him. I stayed the night at his house... weird I know.. that is not like me to stay the night at someones house the first time I meet them... usually I get really creeped out and scared. But somehow I knew he was not going to do anything and that makes me a lot more confortable with the situation. I hate college sometimes. No I love college and I love school and I love learning.. I hate the way other ppl act in college. All through highschool I was a virgin and it was cool and no one asked and no one talked to me about orgasims and sex and things I don't care about. Now I am a virgin and it is weird snd amazing and unusual and impressive?! I swear every person I have met in college, weather friends or someone I like or they like me, or just anyone who has talked to me has talked about sex and orgasims! I HATE SEX and I have not even had it! I HATE ORASIMS and I have not had one. ANd then ppl always have to ask why. Because I hate how everything is revolved around them I hate it so much I just want to be a little kid forever and not have to deal with that shit. I don't want one and then people ask me if it is intentional that I have not had an orgasm? Doesn't something like that to a certain degree have to be intentional? I mean if I wanted one do you think I am incapable of getting one? Probably not I could probably find a way to get an orgasm if I wanted one... I don't!! ugg annoying. anyway, I am off to paint and enjoy the wonderful weather that has come to celebrate spring break with me!