Here We Go.
Wow. I never finished that meme after all, even with all the backposting. Keh, shows how much I'm too lazy to rant online. Soooooo, updates on my life are due, I guess. For fandom issues, I totally did not greet Taiyou/Sho-san/Hina on LJ. Nil. Nada. Nothing. I'm horrible but I think dressing in purple on Hina's birthday and that SakurAiba party we celebrated was enough? Ang uhm, I'm planning to write YaYaYah! aren't I?
a] so ever since that faithful fangirling day I've always wished for Saturday to arrive faster. Not that I hate the other six days of the week considering the fact that I skip school mostly but meh, I feel less of an antisocial when I'm with new friends from fandom. At least I'm not weirded by my own urges to scream and flail at every little thing the shiny boys of my fandom do. so yeah, Saturday. Hope it comes sooner ^^
b] there is a chance of me not going to medschool by june. So yeah, people who read from my previous journal/RL friends know that I've been kind of backing out on the whole medschool deal. It's not that I do not want medschool, just not in June 2010 (school starts in the end of spring here). I kind of want time off, because my pre-med course overwhelmed me, hence all the slacking for these two years. Also, a lot of things have happened with me personally, lots of emotional stress. AND REALLY LOTS. OF. EMOTIONAL. STRESS. I think I'm not mentally and emotionally capable to tackle such a harsh battlefield so soon. If I'm about to decide on something as life-changing as my future I need to know I'm 100% sure, because I'd hate myself if I got into school halfheartedly then complain and backout when things start to get messy. So yeah, if I don't pass in any of the three schools I've applied into, I won't be a med student by June. I'll work so I don't have to be a bum. I'd like to help my parents, too, even if it's just paying the electricity bill.
c] i am broke. brought about by excessive impulse buying. My facebook profile is in the links section of this journal, see for yourself in the notes section why I'm broke until March. Also a reason why I'd like to work. SOON. MONEY, ack. And if you're wondering why I only applied to three medschools, well I GOT LAZY. These things have requirements and I did not want to go through the trouble of completing those. YES I FAIL SO BAD DON'T I. Also, it didn't make that I would apply to all the schools when I wasn't 100% sure of wanting to be in medschool. In the Philippines you can only apply once for med; I didn't want to apply then waste the chance by not going to medschool, and by the time I'm ready there's be no school to apply into. I'm saving those other schools for next year.
d] so yeah, impulse buying. I'll be getting my K8 pinup + buttonpins and BTR/DB pamphlet and photobook later today, I AM SO HAPPY. Broke, and yet happy. I shall most probably be owning an Arashi Toretate photobook two weeks from now, plus Pikanchi shirts and the K8 calendar. Then the Feb magazines will also arrive. DO YOU SEE WHY I AM BROKE. x_x I don't know if I can ask my mom for the Dream A Live photobook because of this medschool thing. MY PARENTS WOULD KILL TO SEE ME IN MEDSCHOOL BY JUNE, I can tell how frustrated they are with this 'rebellious phase' I am having. But I don't want to tell them 'maybe you should study for me instead'. that'd be horrible. I love the old folks too much, it's gracious enough that they're letting me decide like this, seeing as they have been a tad too imposing on me these past years. I should know better than rant in public.
e] THESIS. I think I'm doing a terrible job, but the wonderful thesis partner is so very gracious to accept my mistakes and shortcomings. I love you, really, because you perfectly understand. And I'm sorry I'm such a horrible partner to you. I'm also very happy that you'll be two steps nearer to being in UP Medschool (our own, which is also the best in the Philippines). Shine on, I'll cheer and encourage you from the sidelines ^^
Okay I'm sleeping now. I so want to write that Host!Toma fic and the ROMES one. Hmmmmn maybe when I wake up.
a] so ever since that faithful fangirling day I've always wished for Saturday to arrive faster. Not that I hate the other six days of the week considering the fact that I skip school mostly but meh, I feel less of an antisocial when I'm with new friends from fandom. At least I'm not weirded by my own urges to scream and flail at every little thing the shiny boys of my fandom do. so yeah, Saturday. Hope it comes sooner ^^
b] there is a chance of me not going to medschool by june. So yeah, people who read from my previous journal/RL friends know that I've been kind of backing out on the whole medschool deal. It's not that I do not want medschool, just not in June 2010 (school starts in the end of spring here). I kind of want time off, because my pre-med course overwhelmed me, hence all the slacking for these two years. Also, a lot of things have happened with me personally, lots of emotional stress. AND REALLY LOTS. OF. EMOTIONAL. STRESS. I think I'm not mentally and emotionally capable to tackle such a harsh battlefield so soon. If I'm about to decide on something as life-changing as my future I need to know I'm 100% sure, because I'd hate myself if I got into school halfheartedly then complain and backout when things start to get messy. So yeah, if I don't pass in any of the three schools I've applied into, I won't be a med student by June. I'll work so I don't have to be a bum. I'd like to help my parents, too, even if it's just paying the electricity bill.
c] i am broke. brought about by excessive impulse buying. My facebook profile is in the links section of this journal, see for yourself in the notes section why I'm broke until March. Also a reason why I'd like to work. SOON. MONEY, ack. And if you're wondering why I only applied to three medschools, well I GOT LAZY. These things have requirements and I did not want to go through the trouble of completing those. YES I FAIL SO BAD DON'T I. Also, it didn't make that I would apply to all the schools when I wasn't 100% sure of wanting to be in medschool. In the Philippines you can only apply once for med; I didn't want to apply then waste the chance by not going to medschool, and by the time I'm ready there's be no school to apply into. I'm saving those other schools for next year.
d] so yeah, impulse buying. I'll be getting my K8 pinup + buttonpins and BTR/DB pamphlet and photobook later today, I AM SO HAPPY. Broke, and yet happy. I shall most probably be owning an Arashi Toretate photobook two weeks from now, plus Pikanchi shirts and the K8 calendar. Then the Feb magazines will also arrive. DO YOU SEE WHY I AM BROKE. x_x I don't know if I can ask my mom for the Dream A Live photobook because of this medschool thing. MY PARENTS WOULD KILL TO SEE ME IN MEDSCHOOL BY JUNE, I can tell how frustrated they are with this 'rebellious phase' I am having. But I don't want to tell them 'maybe you should study for me instead'. that'd be horrible. I love the old folks too much, it's gracious enough that they're letting me decide like this, seeing as they have been a tad too imposing on me these past years. I should know better than rant in public.
e] THESIS. I think I'm doing a terrible job, but the wonderful thesis partner is so very gracious to accept my mistakes and shortcomings. I love you, really, because you perfectly understand. And I'm sorry I'm such a horrible partner to you. I'm also very happy that you'll be two steps nearer to being in UP Medschool (our own, which is also the best in the Philippines). Shine on, I'll cheer and encourage you from the sidelines ^^
Okay I'm sleeping now. I so want to write that Host!Toma fic and the ROMES one. Hmmmmn maybe when I wake up.