It's been a LONG time
It's been a long time since I last posted on this forum... so what's been happening ? why the sudden re-emergence? well, climbing guy and I bought a house together in the country, we adopted a dog (crazy border collie who shall be referred to as crazy petals) and just recently, we've had a child together. Level of commitment is ultra high.
I am struggling with motherhood. Here is a list of things:
1. Breastfeeding is not going well, it's like I'm sticking a nipple into the kids mouth and he's resisting it . Not sucking and when he does suck, he either makes fists and punches the boobs or sucks a couple of times and falls asleep. This is inbetween the angry crying and 'why are you making me suck a nipple' kind of commentary.
2. I have not been out of the house for anything other than a doctor's appointment. It sucks, and I need to get some kind of social life / other thing , hence the re-emergence onto LJ.
3. I have a horrible scar and pouch stomach where they cut the kid out. It is still healing, my feet are still slightly swollen and I have back pain from (a) picking up the kid, (b) trying to rock him to sleep and (c) trying to breastfeed. It's like everything involves some kind of arm/ back muscles.
4. I have been buying stuff online, and my bank account is taking a hit as I'm not working at the moment. Although we do have savings, it is not great to see the money not be saved as opposed to being saved just a few short month back.
5. My parents do not know how to take care of a newborn and their advice is antiquated and superstitious. I don't think I can trust mum with my kid.
6. the dog keeps on wanting to lick the kid, smell the kid and generally play with the kid, not good when the kid has no neck / head movement control and crazy petal outweighs him by 15kg. So it's a constant policing of the dog and and kid and the non-crushing / eating/ suffocating of the tiny infant.
7. I need more sleep .
I'm sure my list will be longer, that is all for now. I will post more, as I think right now it'll be good to get back into LJ as it'll give me an outlet for somethings.
mw
I am struggling with motherhood. Here is a list of things:
1. Breastfeeding is not going well, it's like I'm sticking a nipple into the kids mouth and he's resisting it . Not sucking and when he does suck, he either makes fists and punches the boobs or sucks a couple of times and falls asleep. This is inbetween the angry crying and 'why are you making me suck a nipple' kind of commentary.
2. I have not been out of the house for anything other than a doctor's appointment. It sucks, and I need to get some kind of social life / other thing , hence the re-emergence onto LJ.
3. I have a horrible scar and pouch stomach where they cut the kid out. It is still healing, my feet are still slightly swollen and I have back pain from (a) picking up the kid, (b) trying to rock him to sleep and (c) trying to breastfeed. It's like everything involves some kind of arm/ back muscles.
4. I have been buying stuff online, and my bank account is taking a hit as I'm not working at the moment. Although we do have savings, it is not great to see the money not be saved as opposed to being saved just a few short month back.
5. My parents do not know how to take care of a newborn and their advice is antiquated and superstitious. I don't think I can trust mum with my kid.
6. the dog keeps on wanting to lick the kid, smell the kid and generally play with the kid, not good when the kid has no neck / head movement control and crazy petal outweighs him by 15kg. So it's a constant policing of the dog and and kid and the non-crushing / eating/ suffocating of the tiny infant.
7. I need more sleep .
I'm sure my list will be longer, that is all for now. I will post more, as I think right now it'll be good to get back into LJ as it'll give me an outlet for somethings.
mw