Things have being moving forward
Okay, several things have happened in a very short space of time and I'm not sure if it's for the better or worse. so rock climbing guy is still around. He also Iikes to play squash and hockey. so this past week his friends cancelled on him for both rock climbing and squash. so I said that I would play with him. It's Wednesday and I needed to book a court that night. so researched both MSAC, Melb baths and melb uni. MSAC was only after 9pm, bathes was after 8:30, whereas melb uni had a 6:30 slot. so off our old uni we went. so subconsciously, I know that my other friend plays squash at Melbourne uni every week. Now sometimes they don't go and sometimes he doesn't do, it just happens that this time they are all there. Now I look manipulative because it looks like I've engineered this on both sides. which sucks big time. half way through the session I am dying from playing squash, climbing guy is obviously a lot better than me and I'm not much competition for him. so my aforementioned friend was sitting around and so I go do you want a game with climbing guy? All very selfish and feeds into the manipulation storyline. ... But was too worn out to care.
afterwards we went to a German restaurant in Chinatown and went back to my place and he slept over..... *yes insert imagined actions here *
Thursday the next day I was going to see star trek with another friend and climbing guy wanted to come along. so he did, took a shower at my place and went off to see friend. As we are waiting for her another friend from uni walks by, the one that didn't recognize me after the run. so we say hello and ask if he wants to come too? Well something happened because random non scheduled friend asks so how do we know each other? I panicked as everyone was looking at me and said something along the lines of 'Oh climbing guy is the someone I met online' . worst explanation ever! But random friend knows I've being online dating and so understands this perfectly. and the evening proceeds with out much more embarrassment on my part. so as we are walking, I apologise to climbing guy about the introduction and he says if you like you could introduce me to your friends as your boyfriend. biggest shock of my life. say what? You aren't awkward about this and don't mind me calling you 'my' boyfriend with all the social connotations that are attached to that label? Apparently not, we did have that chat about exclusivity and yes... It's out in the open, we're exclusive. .... scary.....
Not sure what to think and what I'm doing. Never really had a boyfriend that I could introduce to people. Who didn't shy away from a 'relationship' and who I actually really enjoy in the bedroom *Yes I did just say that*.
I'm quite happy at the moment but can't help but feel something bad is going to happen to destroy this very soon.
afterwards we went to a German restaurant in Chinatown and went back to my place and he slept over..... *yes insert imagined actions here *
Thursday the next day I was going to see star trek with another friend and climbing guy wanted to come along. so he did, took a shower at my place and went off to see friend. As we are waiting for her another friend from uni walks by, the one that didn't recognize me after the run. so we say hello and ask if he wants to come too? Well something happened because random non scheduled friend asks so how do we know each other? I panicked as everyone was looking at me and said something along the lines of 'Oh climbing guy is the someone I met online' . worst explanation ever! But random friend knows I've being online dating and so understands this perfectly. and the evening proceeds with out much more embarrassment on my part. so as we are walking, I apologise to climbing guy about the introduction and he says if you like you could introduce me to your friends as your boyfriend. biggest shock of my life. say what? You aren't awkward about this and don't mind me calling you 'my' boyfriend with all the social connotations that are attached to that label? Apparently not, we did have that chat about exclusivity and yes... It's out in the open, we're exclusive. .... scary.....
Not sure what to think and what I'm doing. Never really had a boyfriend that I could introduce to people. Who didn't shy away from a 'relationship' and who I actually really enjoy in the bedroom *Yes I did just say that*.
I'm quite happy at the moment but can't help but feel something bad is going to happen to destroy this very soon.