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I'm at work, and it has been ages since I've updated. Right now its slightly slow, so I figured I'd jump on the opportunity.
So far this semester, school is working out really well. I'm definitely passing all of my classes, two I have A's in, and one I have a B (for now) but I think with my paper due this upcoming Friday I can pull it up to A range. I also took a weekend 1 credit seminar on Brazil, and that paper is due the first of December. I'm exhausted, working a lot at the motel, and even though it pays next to nothing I have tons of time for schoolwork and reading. Commuting is getting slightly tiring, but I will have a few weeks off for Christmas which will be nice.
I met Ingrid Michaelson last week and won a pair of free tickets to her show!!!!!
It is probably the most exciting thing that has ever happened to me. I follow her on Twitter, and she had a surprise performance in a Panera that is literally 10 minutes from my house. So I rushed over, and my friend Josh actually won the set of free tickets, buuuuut because he is awesome he gave them to me. Honestly, the best concert I've ever been to. I can't describe how much her music has changed me, how it affects me, and the tough times it has seen me through. I was speechless when I got to meet her and get her autograph on her CD. :D
I also ran into Susie from Road Rules Down Under/The Ruins/Various MTV Challenges. She was in my weekend Brazil course. She is going for her PhD and just happened to be sitting like, four seats down from me; we were having a group discussion and then it hit me that it really was her. I pretty much died.
So last week was basically famous people week. :-)
What else...I have a semi-date on Monday, but other than that my love life is completely barren. I'm hanging out a lot with my friends, especially Josh - we have bonfires like, once a week. Last week he actually ran cable outside so we could watch the Steeler game next to the fire. It was fantastic.
So yeah...each day I can feel my depression and anxiety kind of lurking in the background, but with my regular doctor visits I really am much better prepared to hold things together. The fact that I don't have rent and utilities and tons of gas to pay for all the time also helps. I use about a tank every two weeks, which is doable. My brother and I are contributing for our car insurance, but I don't feel like I'm drowning anymore. I still have periods of exhaustion that completely overwhelm me, but I don't let them get me down for days like I used to. I don't let myself get into cycles of anxiety and worry anymore. Things will work out. No, this isn't where I thought I'd be at age 23, almost 24, but its where I am. And its better than where I was a year ago. It took me leaving Baltimore and those "friends" to realize just how terrible they all really were for me, and how little they cared about me. I haven't heard from almost any of them since I left, and I'm fine with that. I'm rebuilding my life, and I don't want to feel like I'm drowning ever again.
I have to say, I never thought I'd enjoy this job as much as I do. There is enough down time, I still get about $10 a week extra in tips, and generally the people are pretty nice. I think, generally, things are the best they've been in years. :) Yay.
So far this semester, school is working out really well. I'm definitely passing all of my classes, two I have A's in, and one I have a B (for now) but I think with my paper due this upcoming Friday I can pull it up to A range. I also took a weekend 1 credit seminar on Brazil, and that paper is due the first of December. I'm exhausted, working a lot at the motel, and even though it pays next to nothing I have tons of time for schoolwork and reading. Commuting is getting slightly tiring, but I will have a few weeks off for Christmas which will be nice.
I met Ingrid Michaelson last week and won a pair of free tickets to her show!!!!!
It is probably the most exciting thing that has ever happened to me. I follow her on Twitter, and she had a surprise performance in a Panera that is literally 10 minutes from my house. So I rushed over, and my friend Josh actually won the set of free tickets, buuuuut because he is awesome he gave them to me. Honestly, the best concert I've ever been to. I can't describe how much her music has changed me, how it affects me, and the tough times it has seen me through. I was speechless when I got to meet her and get her autograph on her CD. :D
I also ran into Susie from Road Rules Down Under/The Ruins/Various MTV Challenges. She was in my weekend Brazil course. She is going for her PhD and just happened to be sitting like, four seats down from me; we were having a group discussion and then it hit me that it really was her. I pretty much died.
So last week was basically famous people week. :-)
What else...I have a semi-date on Monday, but other than that my love life is completely barren. I'm hanging out a lot with my friends, especially Josh - we have bonfires like, once a week. Last week he actually ran cable outside so we could watch the Steeler game next to the fire. It was fantastic.
So yeah...each day I can feel my depression and anxiety kind of lurking in the background, but with my regular doctor visits I really am much better prepared to hold things together. The fact that I don't have rent and utilities and tons of gas to pay for all the time also helps. I use about a tank every two weeks, which is doable. My brother and I are contributing for our car insurance, but I don't feel like I'm drowning anymore. I still have periods of exhaustion that completely overwhelm me, but I don't let them get me down for days like I used to. I don't let myself get into cycles of anxiety and worry anymore. Things will work out. No, this isn't where I thought I'd be at age 23, almost 24, but its where I am. And its better than where I was a year ago. It took me leaving Baltimore and those "friends" to realize just how terrible they all really were for me, and how little they cared about me. I haven't heard from almost any of them since I left, and I'm fine with that. I'm rebuilding my life, and I don't want to feel like I'm drowning ever again.
I have to say, I never thought I'd enjoy this job as much as I do. There is enough down time, I still get about $10 a week extra in tips, and generally the people are pretty nice. I think, generally, things are the best they've been in years. :) Yay.