some thoughts
you know...ive been thinking a lot lately about laura breaking up with me. I still want her back more than anything, she's the greatest love of my life. But even if she doesn't, i've realized that her breaking up with me has really opened my eyes. The way i've been acting and living just had problems. I saw it sometimes but it just didn't *POP* until i suddenly lost something. I've decided that even if i've lost her forever, i've got to change some things. It'll help me out, and it'll help all the people around me. Sadness will still stay there but if i continue moving I will be ok. I've realized these things over the last few days. I dont know exactly know right now why she broke up with me but i've got some ideas, but I hope she will call me and we can talk things over. It will hurt to lose someone I've loved so much for so long. But my eyes needed to be opened whatever her intentions were. I just felt like i needed to write these things down, im going to go get some things done now and whatever happens, things will get better. Thanks everyone.