I'm glad you're having a laugh
I swear, I'm not being petty. Ok, i am, but not totally. You know what i mean.
I'm glad you're down there, playing your game. Having fun. I'm glad you're having a good time. 25 minutes ago you were sitting up here with me as I lay crying, try to tell you how I felt. Having a lot of anxiety and guilt.. I feel weird. I've been telling you about all the stress and anxiety I've been feeking and I feel like everybody's relying on me. I'm holding too many balls in the air and then I just need help. I told you I just need you to stop procrastonting so much and just help me because I feel like I'm nagging you all the time which makes me feel worse but I feel like between work and home that everything is my responsibility you may just need some reliable help. I just wanna be able to count on someone and. I do tell you this not make you feel bad, just so you I am worried and I need some help. something is wrong.I'm just sad. sad we lost a baby and probably my onl6 chance to have one. Im sad i lost my grsndma and before my wrdding. Im sad about planning a wedding in the middle of a pandemics. Im sad for all the things wedding related i missed out on because of a pandemic. I'm feeling alone and i feel like I'm not enough and i feel like he will hate that my anxiety is slowly crippling me and learn to resent me. He tried to show me my pretty ring and how it even sparkles in the dark. I love you. Please don't think for a moment that I don't, but I just want to feel loved and desired. The sex feels so much better when i feel good inside and out and the more you show more interest than sex and just find ways to show me you love me more than physical. I just have sex I want the sex to feel go into mean something. But trust me.. i love every taste, touch, .... everything dont doubt that for a second. I am just stressed and anxious. I'm sad and tired it's been a year it's been a year... i hope this goes away. I hope you can be patient and love me. I hope you csn help me and br my partners. i hope i can give up control and let you. I hope you see and hesr me. And i can't wait to be your forever.