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so i traded in my sidekick II for a different phone. it was pissing me off. kept freezing up on me. camera didnt work. piece of shit if you ask me. why am i mentioning it? because i have no more myspace access. to bad so sad. ahahh......i was getting addicted to that thing anyways.
so in my withdrawls of posting random mindless ramblings, i remembered about this place. somewhere i can come to get my fix of talking about nothing at all. nice..good ol live journal.
things at home.....suck right now. there is mad tension between josh and vivian. and i guess i see both sides. josh has been staying with us for free for quite sometime now...so that upsets vivian. vivian is a fucken cunt with me, so that upsets josh. either way, i thought my vacation to san diego, away from BOTH of them was going to make things better...at least a little...but it didnt. i came back home to the same shit. the first words vivian uttered were..."yay, my nanny is back!" and all i could think was FUCK YOU YOU STUPId BITCH. nice to know thats all im appreciated for. the living situation is just not working out for me. and it sucks. i love being around my nephews. if anything, thats the only reason why ive stuck around for as long as i have. but my sister...she is something else. and i know you may think im making a big deal out of it, but if you stuck around for a day, and saw the way she REALLY is, you all would understand why i feel the way i do. shes an ungrateful little bitch. simple as that. i lend her money...and she wants more...and all the time. to the point where IM broke half the time cause i have to be giving her cash. and when she has money, and i ask her to pay me back, she throws a bitch fit and says she cant believe im taxing her flesh and blood! the boys, are getting into some shit at day care cause they insist on beating up on the other little kids, (which i find hillarious)and i come home and see why they are the way they are. vivian gets home from work, picks them up, and the whole two hours that they're awake, all she does is talk on the damn phone. and the only time they get attention (unless its from me) is when they do something bad. so why do i even stick around? when my mom was on her death bed, she asked me to take care of my brother and sister for her. and i told her i would. and i think ive done a damn good job. but im finally sick of it. i have no life of my own. cause when im not doing shit for vivian, im worried about vivian, or im fucken stressed out and exhausted cause of vivian. she fucked up my car, and my uncle GAVE her one. so shes got a car, and im left with nothing.i havent had a car in i dont know HOW long. and i cant very well expect josh to drive me around everywhere. i dont even go out as much as i used to, (which isnt a bad thing) cause im always fucken broke! its getting rediculous. and i dont mind helping people out when they need it. but it sucks when they dont fucken appreciate it. and now i need to shut the fuck up and stop bitching about something that no one gives a fuck about. im tired........
san diego was amazing. loved every minute of it. cant wait to go back for another vacation! yay!
i dont feel much like myself lately. sucks ass!
so in my withdrawls of posting random mindless ramblings, i remembered about this place. somewhere i can come to get my fix of talking about nothing at all. nice..good ol live journal.
things at home.....suck right now. there is mad tension between josh and vivian. and i guess i see both sides. josh has been staying with us for free for quite sometime now...so that upsets vivian. vivian is a fucken cunt with me, so that upsets josh. either way, i thought my vacation to san diego, away from BOTH of them was going to make things better...at least a little...but it didnt. i came back home to the same shit. the first words vivian uttered were..."yay, my nanny is back!" and all i could think was FUCK YOU YOU STUPId BITCH. nice to know thats all im appreciated for. the living situation is just not working out for me. and it sucks. i love being around my nephews. if anything, thats the only reason why ive stuck around for as long as i have. but my sister...she is something else. and i know you may think im making a big deal out of it, but if you stuck around for a day, and saw the way she REALLY is, you all would understand why i feel the way i do. shes an ungrateful little bitch. simple as that. i lend her money...and she wants more...and all the time. to the point where IM broke half the time cause i have to be giving her cash. and when she has money, and i ask her to pay me back, she throws a bitch fit and says she cant believe im taxing her flesh and blood! the boys, are getting into some shit at day care cause they insist on beating up on the other little kids, (which i find hillarious)and i come home and see why they are the way they are. vivian gets home from work, picks them up, and the whole two hours that they're awake, all she does is talk on the damn phone. and the only time they get attention (unless its from me) is when they do something bad. so why do i even stick around? when my mom was on her death bed, she asked me to take care of my brother and sister for her. and i told her i would. and i think ive done a damn good job. but im finally sick of it. i have no life of my own. cause when im not doing shit for vivian, im worried about vivian, or im fucken stressed out and exhausted cause of vivian. she fucked up my car, and my uncle GAVE her one. so shes got a car, and im left with nothing.i havent had a car in i dont know HOW long. and i cant very well expect josh to drive me around everywhere. i dont even go out as much as i used to, (which isnt a bad thing) cause im always fucken broke! its getting rediculous. and i dont mind helping people out when they need it. but it sucks when they dont fucken appreciate it. and now i need to shut the fuck up and stop bitching about something that no one gives a fuck about. im tired........
san diego was amazing. loved every minute of it. cant wait to go back for another vacation! yay!
i dont feel much like myself lately. sucks ass!