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so i get on here and i don't know really what to write about. the things i write about that are personal of course go in my diary to never be looked at. and then i get on here to think what else could i say. all the feelings have been entered into my diary so what's the point? i watched a movie on lifetime about a transsexual girl. she had male genitalia though. it was so sad i couldn't believe it was a true story. i should've expected it because life is never a dream. it made me think why people feel bad. there are different types of bad lives for different type of people. bad for paris hilton was her dog running away or that hit and run incident. and i say that's bad for her because she has experienced life differently than someone who may live in the ghetto. bad for one of them is going to sleep hungry. yeah, that's bad for everyone, but not everyone has to experience that. i'm not saying people bring their lives up like that because their lazy and don't want to be successful. i'm saying it's hard. sometimes impossible. but if you have a family you love, no matter if it is paris or a gangster, family can keep each other strong. i haven't experienced this family strength in almost three years so i'm not the one to preach. i love like sometimes, but other times, it really gets to me. i'm aware, also, i take it too seriously and it's my fault i get too hurt over little things. it really is hard for me to not be so sensitive. i care too much about my surroundings and the people in my life that have me in their lives too. i feel like i love people more than they love me. that is why i'm more prone to sitting at home just crying compared to most people. this is okay with me because i could be a lot worse. i don't know how much i appreciate my life. i definitely take advantage of it. i wish there was something i could do to stop. thinking about life makes it worse, but it also allows myself to accept how i think. i want everyone to have the opportunity to think life through thoroughly because when someone makes a rude remark to another person, it could just be the last thing they ever hear.
melissa
melissa