Apr 09, 2004 12:50
It's Good Friday today and nothing much is going on...I spent the whole day yesterday cleaning out my closet...ugh...I never knew I had so much junk tucked inside my cabinets. I mean, when I finished there were around 3 huge plastic bags of junk- old clothes, towelettes, bags, etc. Some were spotted from being stuck in that airless space for so long. And then washing my bags was such a chore too...I had to handwash them and the water was quite black before I was halfway through. Ugh. Never knew there was sooooo much dirt hiding in my bags...
What has gotten me so infuriated is this guy who has been harassing me for quite some time already. I mean he really is a pain! I knew him back in grade school...I was in grade six and he was in third year high. We bonded over this girl he was crushing on...but later he began to act weirdly around me, which totally creeped me out! So I started avoiding him...and then I moved to another school afterwards so I thought I had finally gotten rid of him. But no, he still wouldn't let up and even went to my high school to visit me! That was so totally weird. Ugh. He even used to go to my house on my birthday to give cake and gifts and whatnot. Eventually it stopped and I quite forgot about that ghastly experience.
However, December last year he left a note in our mailbox saying hi, leaving his cell number and stuff. Stupid me actually texted him to say hi! I know now that it was a really dumb move but at that time who would have thought that it would turn out to be "The Stalking Part 2"? I mean, it has been 5 years since we last had any contact with each other and I thought whatever juvenile infatuation he had was over by now.
It started out pleasantly enough, we texted and stuff. I really wanted to know what happened in my old school after I left, so it was nice to have somebody update me on going-ons there. We had one decent phone conversation...then he started pestering me to meet up with him, to "catch up on old times". Right then and there I smelled something..and I was quite reluctant to meet up with him. He was so insistent that I ended up agreeing to meet him for lunch. I told him to meet me in my university. I brought along my friends cos no way was I going to have lunch with him alone! Which was a really good mood, cos he turned out to be creepier in person. He arrived like an hour early, so I was still in class. Then when i went out of the school grounds I saw him standing by the gate! It was such a creepy sight! I mean, a normal person would have sat down in one of the benches or something across the street. He really resembled one of those stalker-type villains in the movies. I know this sounds really mean but I'm just telling it as it is.
I tried to be civil cos after all, I did agree to meet him. But during that lunch hour he hardly talked and jut kept on staring at me! my friends were all creeped out too, even my guy friends. They were actually the ones who said that this guy just stared a tme the whole time! I just couldn't stand it so I went back to school to get away from him.
I thought that would be the end of it, but he kept on texting me everyday, making small talk, blah blah blah. He even wanted to go to my house! The nerve! Inviting himself to my home! Duh! I made up the most mundane excuses just so as to not to have to talk to him or to see him again. But he just wouldn't let up.
After Christmas I finally had to agree to meet him again cos I ran out of polite excuses. This time he even said he wanted to see me alone cos he wasn't comfortable with my friends. The nerve! Anyway to get it over with I agreed. I met him in Starbucks and he gave me a Christmas gift. Whatever. I didn't want to accept it but I just wanted to get the thing over and done with. He even wanted me to open it in front of him! He's just too much! But I just put the damn thing in my bag. He aske dif I had lunch...I'm not used to lying so I unthingkingly replied, "No." Then he wanted to have luch with me! No way was that gonna happen. So I just said the first thing that came into my mind, "Uh, no thanks, but I don't usually eat lunch, no time for that!" My friend was supposed to rescue me after 15 minutes...and she did.
That night he kept on texting me asking if I liked his gift. That was such a loser-like thing to do. i mean, are you so starved for affection that you try to buy a girl with a gift, and then pester her asking if she liked the gift? If that wasn't in bad taste I don't know what is! By this time I was really fed up so I didn't even bother replying. I shut off my phone and went to sleep.
The next day I opened my phone and what do I see?! He left several messages during the night....one of which actually offered to give me lunch money....was that pathetic or what?! I found it very sick. He sounded as if we were really close friends when we hardly know each other. He still thought of me as that naive sixth grader....ugh puh-lease! I told him no thanks, I don't want it and its not proper to be giving other people lunch money anyway. Then he had the gall to reply "You don't understand me...I'm just concerned for your welfare blah blah blah....." Duh, does he think tha I'm a charity case? If ever I was one it still was in very bad taste to offer money. And at any rate the reason why I didn't eat luch that day was because I didn't want to eat lunch with him and I know that he was going to treat me. He is just too dense for words. Anyway I finally reached the end of my rope and I snapped at him. I told him that yeah, I don't understand him, but what I do understand is that he's creeping me out! I told him to stop bothering me, live his own life...stop insinuating himself into mine...etc etc.
He started apologizing and has been apologizing ever since. Not that I pay it any attention. I've decided that the safest thing to do under the circumstances is to avoid contact with him. The way he has been acting was just not normal. So I never replied to any of his messages. That went on for some weeks....He even used a new number and pretended to be his sister to try to get to me! Duh! as if his sister would even text me?! Of all th elame brained schemes. Finally around 3 weeks ago he texted me something nasty. He said that I was no longer the girl he used to know (please! of course I wasn't my 12 year old self anymore!), that he missed the old me who was a bit mataray but at least had a good heart (implying that I don't have a good heart any longer?), he even insulted my school, asking if that's what's being thought in my school, to be proud and unforgiving (my god, how dare he say those things?!)...that he felt sorry for me and that he would be praying that I would see the light, etc etc. I was so enraged but I stopped myself from replying. The nerve of him to say those things to me! No matter what happens I will never reply to him! He simply does not exist for me anymore. Even my tita said to just ignore him because any reaction would please him. So I just ignored him. Then afterwards he started apologizing again, blah blah. What really gets my goat is that he asks "sorry for whatever it is you think i've done...' He just can't get it! For him he hasn't done anything wrong! He thinks I'm just being petty. He's really nuts.
So everyday he has been calling me phone but stops after one ring. Argh! Its driving me crazy! I'm going to change my number asap! Last night though, he texted me again. This was his message:
"Good pm! I hope we can make up already. Let's forget everything that has happened. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive. Please? You know I miss you :)"
I am just so aggravated! He sounds as if we're so damn close! We're not! We can't even be considered as friends! I hardly know him! He is just so psycho! And he thinks that he hasn't done anything wrong, after stalking me, trying to give me money, and then insulting me? He presumes that he knows me, but I don't think he does! He has just made up this image of me in his mind....which is so discordant with reality. It just is so creepy. I am just so fed up with his bullshit! I just can't take it anymore!