its a long one
i never update my lj because either theres nothing to write about it, or there is something to write about but i'm like i'm too lazy tonight, i'll do it tomorrow, then more stuff happens and i'm too tired to update.. then theres just too much to make a reasonably short entry, and i don't make one cuz if i did people would see alot of words and skip over it. but i'm gonna write one anyway.
long or not.
don't read it. whatev. at this point i am realizing once again that i cant remember anything that happens and i rely alot on reading old lj entries to find out what i was doing and what i was thinking at a given time. only this time, some memories i would like to keep. like, i'm forgetting already. half the stuff i want to write about, i can't remember much of. but i know that i was feeling really shitty and now i'm not, so these things will be written about, however incomplete.
so lately the parents have been particularly horrible to me, i had to clean for like 3 days straight and i couldnt go anywhere for almost a week for no reason at all and i'm constantly getting yelled at. pretty much every day i wondered how far my car can make it without dying/exploding/all the wheels falling off.. because as most people know, i have a tendency to take off to the other side of the state for periods of time when i'm really unhappy and the parents are being really horrible. i'm not sure the car would make it to plainfield even. so here i am.
but things are a little better. thursday i finally got out of my house, i went to hans' house to watch party monster with him and david, and i got there and lizz and ryan were there. me and lizz were very suprised to see eachother, except that lizz heard i was gonna be there and then decided to come after hearing that. it was a big suprise still. my memory of the night is very vague, because me and david thought taking a hit every time a drug was shown in party monster was a good idea for a game, but like a half hour into it we already lost count and were really fucked up... but i do remember it was alot of fun and i felt a bit better too.
friday almost completely blew. i had to go to middletown with the mom and take the sister out for the day for her birthday. we went to the mall with no cash whatsoever and an almost entirely maxed out credit card, looked at really boring shit... i was really pissed off but my mom kinda bribed me into atleast acting like i was in a better mood with a stitch stuffed animal that was on sale at the disney store and nicole richie's book (which i love so far btw). then we ate dissapointing indian food, returned my sister, and went home.
saturday was the zoo day, which started at 8 in the morning in the woods and was a good way to start the day. i hope that when i read this again in the future i know what i'm talking about. this could cause alot of confusion i think. but i think i will remember though.
then me and david went to heidi's house and waited for everyone, and a weird guy who isn't kenny wasn't robbing it.
then at the zoo, me, heidi, lizz, david, kenny, allison, and kenny and allison's friend chelsea saw alot of deer and monkeys and nudity. one of the monkeys really hated allison and would run over and make monkey threatening gestures and scream at her every time it saw her. we hung out in the deer forest and talked smack about price chopper for awhile. some mozzarella sticks almost killed half of us. we took some really gay pictures i can't wait to see. oh yeah theres video of the monkey and allison. lizz made friends with a parrot that loves her and wants to kiss her. heidi offended a parrot that looks like a pigeon. it was an awesome zoo trip and chelsea was a fun addition to the group
after that everyone went home but me and david went to victoria station then ended up going to see guys and dolls at the bradley, which is a really great musical except for the music part. alot of the songs seemed totally random and we got really confused, but it was still fun. and i checked my myspace from my phone before it started and there was a comment from this girl emily who was at hans' on thursday saying like, "i'll probably see you around soon" or something, and she was... right behind me. it was exciting. then we went to the after party even though i had to leave for work by 530 am and david had to get up early for a haircut. i couldnt drink or anything cuz its kinda a job you have to be sober for if you want to not like, be in jail. but it was still fun. me and emily did some dances, and she sang me a song, and steph was there too and we talked and it was hep.
and today wasn't that exciting, i had to be in an ambulance on standby at a soccer tournament for 12 hours. i just missed the only interesting call of the day. like right before i got to the building, they had to go to a prison for something involving methadone, a woman who was touched by god, i don't know... i heard random things here and there and wished i had been there. i had to wait a lon gtime for them to get back from the call, then we dealt with children with sports injuries all day. but i feel better about myself if i'm being somewhat productive, so i will do shit like drive to windsor for 630 am to deal with injured children for 12 hours and not get paid. and i need to do it again 630 tomorrow morning, so i better go take some sleepers now cuz i like havent slept in 2 days
long or not.
don't read it. whatev. at this point i am realizing once again that i cant remember anything that happens and i rely alot on reading old lj entries to find out what i was doing and what i was thinking at a given time. only this time, some memories i would like to keep. like, i'm forgetting already. half the stuff i want to write about, i can't remember much of. but i know that i was feeling really shitty and now i'm not, so these things will be written about, however incomplete.
so lately the parents have been particularly horrible to me, i had to clean for like 3 days straight and i couldnt go anywhere for almost a week for no reason at all and i'm constantly getting yelled at. pretty much every day i wondered how far my car can make it without dying/exploding/all the wheels falling off.. because as most people know, i have a tendency to take off to the other side of the state for periods of time when i'm really unhappy and the parents are being really horrible. i'm not sure the car would make it to plainfield even. so here i am.
but things are a little better. thursday i finally got out of my house, i went to hans' house to watch party monster with him and david, and i got there and lizz and ryan were there. me and lizz were very suprised to see eachother, except that lizz heard i was gonna be there and then decided to come after hearing that. it was a big suprise still. my memory of the night is very vague, because me and david thought taking a hit every time a drug was shown in party monster was a good idea for a game, but like a half hour into it we already lost count and were really fucked up... but i do remember it was alot of fun and i felt a bit better too.
friday almost completely blew. i had to go to middletown with the mom and take the sister out for the day for her birthday. we went to the mall with no cash whatsoever and an almost entirely maxed out credit card, looked at really boring shit... i was really pissed off but my mom kinda bribed me into atleast acting like i was in a better mood with a stitch stuffed animal that was on sale at the disney store and nicole richie's book (which i love so far btw). then we ate dissapointing indian food, returned my sister, and went home.
saturday was the zoo day, which started at 8 in the morning in the woods and was a good way to start the day. i hope that when i read this again in the future i know what i'm talking about. this could cause alot of confusion i think. but i think i will remember though.
then me and david went to heidi's house and waited for everyone, and a weird guy who isn't kenny wasn't robbing it.
then at the zoo, me, heidi, lizz, david, kenny, allison, and kenny and allison's friend chelsea saw alot of deer and monkeys and nudity. one of the monkeys really hated allison and would run over and make monkey threatening gestures and scream at her every time it saw her. we hung out in the deer forest and talked smack about price chopper for awhile. some mozzarella sticks almost killed half of us. we took some really gay pictures i can't wait to see. oh yeah theres video of the monkey and allison. lizz made friends with a parrot that loves her and wants to kiss her. heidi offended a parrot that looks like a pigeon. it was an awesome zoo trip and chelsea was a fun addition to the group
after that everyone went home but me and david went to victoria station then ended up going to see guys and dolls at the bradley, which is a really great musical except for the music part. alot of the songs seemed totally random and we got really confused, but it was still fun. and i checked my myspace from my phone before it started and there was a comment from this girl emily who was at hans' on thursday saying like, "i'll probably see you around soon" or something, and she was... right behind me. it was exciting. then we went to the after party even though i had to leave for work by 530 am and david had to get up early for a haircut. i couldnt drink or anything cuz its kinda a job you have to be sober for if you want to not like, be in jail. but it was still fun. me and emily did some dances, and she sang me a song, and steph was there too and we talked and it was hep.
and today wasn't that exciting, i had to be in an ambulance on standby at a soccer tournament for 12 hours. i just missed the only interesting call of the day. like right before i got to the building, they had to go to a prison for something involving methadone, a woman who was touched by god, i don't know... i heard random things here and there and wished i had been there. i had to wait a lon gtime for them to get back from the call, then we dealt with children with sports injuries all day. but i feel better about myself if i'm being somewhat productive, so i will do shit like drive to windsor for 630 am to deal with injured children for 12 hours and not get paid. and i need to do it again 630 tomorrow morning, so i better go take some sleepers now cuz i like havent slept in 2 days