to lead him back to the right path
Can it be more confusing than now?
I've been praying for over a week now since Pastor Joshua told me to let go of him. I followed what he said because I believed that was what God's answer to my prayers since last December regarding my relationship with him
And then, I received his painful email and I couldn't helped myself but feeling so sad; not because I let him go but because he suffered so much because of his own family's stupid standards. He said that what he wanted was not what his family wanted, they ruined him but still he stood by them and let them do whatever they wanted to do.
So I asked ci Fenny; she told me to pray again and ask God to tell me the real meaning of what He wants to do with both of us. I've honestly letting him go and I'm fine with it. I know with his parents absurd standards and his sisters cunning ways, I don't think I want to suffer that much for life just to be with the man I still love.
Honestly I do want him to heal, I don't want him to suffer like that. So I pray and hope I can guide him back to God's path and the rightful way of following Him. Ci Fenny said, that's my task now to lead him back, I should have faith and my faith will be the guide for him. Oh geesh ... why can't I ever get a clean break?
... and he is going to come home after Easter ... he said he wanted to go to Hongkong with his parents and enjoy summer there. I feel like WHAT IS THIS ALL ABOUT?!
is it going to be what Upil once said? he will come home and his parents will ask him and he will try to fight us back again? because what he wants is me and no one else? I don't know what God's plan for us. Together or not in the future, my heart has chose to follow whatever God wants me to do.
Right now I let him go ... I will just lead him home to Jesus and see what else is on the programme because our plans are not His plans but I know His plans are always beautiful in His time.