Done

[uclapshaug]

Mike and I finished the last of it last night. It was a decent night, nothing spectacular. Got Spirited Away and some munchies from Ralph's. Smoked out in my room with some Pink Floyd and such. Watched the movie, hung out with some sober chicks who came downstairs for awhile, and then went to sleep. Spirited Away or another anime would be fun to

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heh

[onewingedimp]

I came across the " that's their first impression of me." part alot when i smoked a bunch. Thats when i became discreet about it unless with my friends, and even with them. So i'd start pretending i wasnt hight. I also was able to pull around more people and it didnt make me so retarded. But there was a time, when i was getting into smoking alot, that i felt i was way to retarded to be around people and i hated being introduced as "This is my friend, he's high." So i even stopped smoking at parties and if i wanted to smoke, i'd take myself or my friends out of the room and smoke and even then, i wouldn't want to go back to people i just met if my friends were going to act a fool. I was tired of people expecting me to be retarded and have a "Burnout" feel to me. In short, i hated being judged and stereotyped because of how i smoked pot, even if people were cool with smoking pot. You you've done it also, i do it to people when they are drunk moreso, "Oh he's drunk...." and you think you can be more rude, or more careless to them. I was tired of being on the short end of that stick. I think my "Social retardation" subsided after a while, and i was able to pull around more people. I think im going around in circles here, but im really glad that i am taking a break from smoking, at this point i have absolutely 0 desire to smoke pot. Not that i dont like the idea of being high or that i dont want to just smoke a J and read a good book sometimes, im thinking of it more like seasons. Winter, spring, fall. You need a change, and when you get heavily involved in something, you need to take a step back and make sure why you do it in the first place.

There is a song lyric about sacrafices that comes to mind.

"Crawling can be beautiful
it sure beats standing still
crawling on your hands and knees
can be a show of will."

This makes me think that if your still willing to go on, it shows how hard you'll try. And if you know smoking pot is something you like, then it will not be a problem taking a break from it, because you know you can come back to it whenever you want. And not that this quote totally applys to this situation, but i think it is saying something about your prioritys. I know you can quit easily, but you wouldnt have dedicated your last 4 entries if it was'nt a big deal. Anyways, best of luck, and im glad you've justified your descision.

Re: heh

[uclapshaug]

This needs no reply because you've said exactly what I feel and what I'd hoped you'd understand. Thank you. Whenever it gets hard, just know that I'm there with you and for you.