duh

[uchinole]

had this half a dream about falling and crashing literally everywhere/construction in space of weird rings and engines and there was this one sloppy huge pipe on which i crawled to wherever i needed to. even went through a fucking spinning fan without being slashed into pieces (which ensures that it was just half a dream) and yes i just kept falling and crashing and being tossed away to land on another destination before thriving to any open gap and flinging myself out to fall as if all the scratches and wounds didn't matter (it kind of made sense since i felt no pain). at the (almost) end i ended up falling onto something like the ridiculously pointy top of a tower built on another mechanical ring, being pierced through right below the ribs and slid down down down until i'm torn in two lying there and just stared at the sky, fucking filled with stars and revolving around me as if the whole galaxy was just a huge globe in which i was in with planets as wall decoration

addition is most of the time i kept falling right into a bright, big dot like a round gate with too strong light radiating outward

the weirdest thing is, i felt calmest at that moment. and my body could heal so i dragged my upper half to the other to do whatever they should but still lied there bonelessly for another short while before crawling off the cliff and fell again. no panic was found this time. and at last when i (temporarily) stopped somewhere it finally felt alright (even if i would be shredded for real later)

what did it possibly mean, duh