I Remember...
One time...We were outside, and we were talking of running away and becoming prostitutes. And then I said that I'd do it to, and she said that she didn't want to share me with anyone. I took that to mean that she understood that I felt the same way.
Apparently it didn't...
And now, I've been forced to end it. I couldn't be with her. I just couldn't. Not right now.
I hate how it ended. I hate that it ended, and especially that I ended it. I hate that I did it the way I did, so impersonal. In a way that I never, ever wanted to.
But this is for the better, right?
I mean, this is the obvious thing for me to do given my situation, right?
And, if it wasn't supposed to happend this way, then it'll get fixed later, right?
Then, why do I feel so very bad?
But I don't think it's all bad. Being away from her, I'll be able to forgive.
And think clearly.
If you want to know my reasoning out of why I've done it, read it...But don't criticize it...I've thought of more than just this.
I've pretty much outlined my reasoning of it all, but the most convincing part came when I got to thinking about if I would have done it. I realized that there's no way I would have ever done anything similar. And if she was able to even think of it, much less do it, then there must have been something that she may have not even realized that was wrong.
Everything sucks right now...
Apparently it didn't...
And now, I've been forced to end it. I couldn't be with her. I just couldn't. Not right now.
I hate how it ended. I hate that it ended, and especially that I ended it. I hate that I did it the way I did, so impersonal. In a way that I never, ever wanted to.
But this is for the better, right?
I mean, this is the obvious thing for me to do given my situation, right?
And, if it wasn't supposed to happend this way, then it'll get fixed later, right?
Then, why do I feel so very bad?
But I don't think it's all bad. Being away from her, I'll be able to forgive.
And think clearly.
If you want to know my reasoning out of why I've done it, read it...But don't criticize it...I've thought of more than just this.
I've pretty much outlined my reasoning of it all, but the most convincing part came when I got to thinking about if I would have done it. I realized that there's no way I would have ever done anything similar. And if she was able to even think of it, much less do it, then there must have been something that she may have not even realized that was wrong.
Everything sucks right now...