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I find it odd that i haven't written about my recent break-up...yeah, i broke up w/ my negrito yet again...oddly enough however, it seriously doesn't feel as if we'll go back to e/other...yet, its hard to fathom a life where he is utterly abscent...i heard he wants to move away and start anew...i find myself conflicted by this...while i seriously and whole heartedly would want him to start anew and be happy...i dont want him to leave me...i'd like to think that this is like a really long break and that perhaps someday, when the time is right...when we are finally right for e/other that we'll find our way back to each others' arms. I wanna be able to believe that we'll remain friends even if, we decide to begin new relationships with other people...but of course, the realistic side of me tells me that this is close to impossible.
i went out the other day with my cuz whom has actually become very dear to me. the dude is something else...he's what i like to think of as a mexican twink...and yet, he dances like he was as black as they come. he had a blast...i think he was hit on by like 5 diff. dudes...i'd often have stop dancing w/ him so that he could carry on with whomever was hitting on him...meanwhile he'd go look for me...i found myself text mssging. my negrito...ugh, oh gawd, i need to stop...anyhow, long story short...i miss the guy
i went out the other day with my cuz whom has actually become very dear to me. the dude is something else...he's what i like to think of as a mexican twink...and yet, he dances like he was as black as they come. he had a blast...i think he was hit on by like 5 diff. dudes...i'd often have stop dancing w/ him so that he could carry on with whomever was hitting on him...meanwhile he'd go look for me...i found myself text mssging. my negrito...ugh, oh gawd, i need to stop...anyhow, long story short...i miss the guy