Jan 05, 2004 09:52
every morning now for the past month or so i feel it...i awake only to find myself in a weakened state...the pounding gets stronger and the breathing a lot harder...if i sneeze or do any drastic moves...a cramp-like sensation comes over me...for the first few hours of the day it is hard to ignore and slowly but surely...it becomes but a whisper...yet it is there...a certain "hissing" that beckons deep w/in me...i cant help but to think that my life escapes me with each passing heart-beat...
It is almost surreal to be witnessing my own decay...my own demise brought upon the ignorance and negligence of my own stubborn hand...