Inquisitive Shadow...
Reflecting on the person i was when i lived in the woods. Everything was perfect for those three months. It was hard work, but I made a family out there. I was me. I miss that person. I created my own sense of self worth and didn't let others dictate it the way i do now. I wrote in my journal out there on March 27,2002: "Nobody will ever make me feel like I'm not good enough." And that is exactly what I have been doing-letting others make me feel like shit about myself. That's not right. I'm stronger than that. The only reason Frank yelled at me the way he did, wasn't because he hated me, but it was something he saw in himself that he didn't like...so he had to place blame somewhere. Because it's much too difficult to accept the consequences in which your actions caused. But how is this for a consequence? I got my Werner Herzog Noseratu print framed and matted a couple of days ago. It was supposed to be a house warming present, but I was extradited. Sorry Dallas, Bryan, and Alex, I'm keeping it. But anyways, maybe i'll go on a solo backpacking trip when it get's a little warmer, to clear my head and reinvent myself. Holy Fuck... Was that not clearly a hippie statement. I am asking that to be stricken from the record. Thank You. In conclusion, "Strength through vulnerability"- Lao Tsu. This was a mantra I repeated for 89 days while I was in the woods/desert. If this is where it brought me...Lao Tsu's a fag.