Not Sure What's Going On
I just got done writing essay #4 - which we have to submit to NPR for their "I Believe" program.
Ok fine - I was all ready to write my essay on "I Believe that Asparagus is the Anti-Food". But as my fingers started typing - something completely different came out.
I now have an essay about certain instances in my life - some of which I have never discussed with another person. Instances specifically from my childhood - about my childhood. Things that I'm no way comfortable revealing.
Yet ....
Here's the thing. I'm a firm believer in listening to my subconscious. It has never really steered me wrong and has often saved my life. So if it thinks I need to write about this stuff - maybe I do.
Still - it was hard posting it to the class discussion board knowing that my classmates and instructor will be reading it tonight. Posting it to NPR wasn't so bad. Only one or so people who I don't know and will never meet will be reading it.
Will I post it here? Probably not. But if you really want to read it - I'll think about it under the condition that we never discuss it. My subconscious may think I'm ready to write about such things - but no way in hell am I ready to talk about it.
Ok fine - I was all ready to write my essay on "I Believe that Asparagus is the Anti-Food". But as my fingers started typing - something completely different came out.
I now have an essay about certain instances in my life - some of which I have never discussed with another person. Instances specifically from my childhood - about my childhood. Things that I'm no way comfortable revealing.
Yet ....
Here's the thing. I'm a firm believer in listening to my subconscious. It has never really steered me wrong and has often saved my life. So if it thinks I need to write about this stuff - maybe I do.
Still - it was hard posting it to the class discussion board knowing that my classmates and instructor will be reading it tonight. Posting it to NPR wasn't so bad. Only one or so people who I don't know and will never meet will be reading it.
Will I post it here? Probably not. But if you really want to read it - I'll think about it under the condition that we never discuss it. My subconscious may think I'm ready to write about such things - but no way in hell am I ready to talk about it.