joy and pain sunshine and rain
the last few days have been really tough. but so great at the same time. i feel a huge weight off my shoulders, one that i did not even feel was there untill it was gone.
i spent some wonderful moments with sarah p this past week and some choice advice and tough ?'s from her have really put my in a place of change and understanding of what i need and want in my personal relationships.
thanks for that! i feel so much stonger. the words did not hurt, did not make me retract.
my deal with d rock has changed in some really important and realistic ways. while it hurts it is all for the best. it is a time to celebrate and feel joy. growth and learning and friendship. a true vision of our dynamic will take shape, one that is sustainable and healthy. things were getting messy and confusing for the both of us, and i feel good and ok with what is in front of us. golden and true is derek d.
i am going to take some time to think about what i need and want. i think that i may be off to montreal much sooner than july. but we will see. i feel asthough i have a clear sense of what kind of life i need to build for myself and what kind of relationships i need to develop. but what is clear i need to truely get to the relationship that i have with myself each day. i think that i defer from taking care of myself and distract with others. this has the affect of putting off my own growth. so much to say here. but for now i will say no more.
i spent some wonderful moments with sarah p this past week and some choice advice and tough ?'s from her have really put my in a place of change and understanding of what i need and want in my personal relationships.
thanks for that! i feel so much stonger. the words did not hurt, did not make me retract.
my deal with d rock has changed in some really important and realistic ways. while it hurts it is all for the best. it is a time to celebrate and feel joy. growth and learning and friendship. a true vision of our dynamic will take shape, one that is sustainable and healthy. things were getting messy and confusing for the both of us, and i feel good and ok with what is in front of us. golden and true is derek d.
i am going to take some time to think about what i need and want. i think that i may be off to montreal much sooner than july. but we will see. i feel asthough i have a clear sense of what kind of life i need to build for myself and what kind of relationships i need to develop. but what is clear i need to truely get to the relationship that i have with myself each day. i think that i defer from taking care of myself and distract with others. this has the affect of putting off my own growth. so much to say here. but for now i will say no more.