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TODAY.. Went to the doctor. I just read this 'SWOLLEN' book. It's awesome. So detailed that you can imagine it. Eating ketchup chips. While driving, just reminicsing and looking at the rain. It seems depressing at the time but eh.. I can't help it. It's tomorrow and we won't even admit what's wrong and what we think and ughh.. I need to call Marius too. 2 days late but yeah.. Might be awkward since I haven't called him since I started going out with Paul. At that point it's like we ran out of things to say to each other. Now, I just might get back the friendship I had with him. Maybe? But what would make me happier is if .... treated me like a best friend. Greedy eh? It happened before so it could happen again.
Imma backtrack you guys on the last couple of days..
Thursday, Nov. 9, 2006
Spirit Day today. Dressed in yellow shirt that says 'Im near a spa' which no one got. Not even me. And my gym clothes. Pep rally thingy in the morning. Uh, I have to call Marius? And I have to tell him shit, he says? Right after school, went to Country Style with Julienne as usual. But we went on a lonnng journey cause we walked a little too extra. She says I wasted her one year supply of energy. What a bum. Ate vanilla donut and French Vanilla. YUM! =P Drew this and this.. and she helped with my mistakes. Some random old dude tells us we draw good and shows us his paintings in his cell. Kinda scary but yeah. DUDE! HE'S SO QUIET! ='(
Friday, Nov. 10, 2006
I had gay issues like usual. Depressed again.. and I LOST DONNA'S DICTIONARY! NOOOOO! -_-; It's the crowd of people who were fighting's fault. They came near the staircase spot and we had to leave.. I think I rushed and I left it.. I SWEAR I PUT IT IN MY BAG! Well.. still thinking about the silent quietness and not telling me stuff and the depressing momentums.. making me more depressed. I just went hullaballoo in French class. Steph asked where I'm going after school.. but nowhere. Usually I'd be with Cristel or him.. but eh.. So I chilled with her to Parkway til it's her job time. Walked with Cristel and Jodelle and played Steph's Acronym game. Most of them didn't make sense and the ones that did make sense are either gay or dirty. LOL!
Out
Bitching
Sexy
Emos
So
Sell
Drugs
Something like that.. but more sex..
ATM = Alyssa The Man (niiicceeeee)
BK= Burger King
Me and Steph went to Plum Tree.. she bought me food to cheer me up and talked about stuff. =) LOL!
And I think THEY were there.. or maybe I was just crazy and thought everyone wearing a white sweater was him..
Then she bought me candy from the dollar store. =) YAYY!
Bold the ones that apply to you.
Relationships
I am currently in a relationship.
I have never been in a real(ish) relationship.
Unless you count seventh grade 'boyfriends'.
I rather have a fling than a relationship.
I think the most important thing in a relationship is honesty.
The longest relationship I had was under a month.
I wish my crush was my boyfriend. [ ;) LMAO ]
I have been in a relationship that lasted a year or more.
I rather be single than taken...
Sex is more important to me at this age than commitment.
I want both.
I am saving my virginity until marriage, thank you very much.
If a guy can make me laugh, he has my heart.
Lust
I believe in LUST at first sight, not love.
No, I believe in the old 'love at first sight'.
I always believe I'm in love, when I'm really in lust.
I get infatuated by people very often
I get hurt by a lot of boys I'm in 'lust' with.
Crushes are funner than relationships!
I love the song 'Crushed' by Rosette, and I can relate to it.
(not the sexual meaning to it o_O)
There's no such thing as lust.
Whoever bolded that has obviously never thought someone was hot before.
The only good thing that comes out of lust is great sex.
I hate it when teenage girls believe their in 'love' with someone who they've been going out with for a week.
That's like half of my friends.
I absolutely love the feeling I get in my tummy when I see that boy I like.
Flings are awesome!
Your crush/boyfriend
I adore him sooo much <3.
Nah, it's just a little crush, nothing big.
It's somewhere in between.
He has brown hair.
He buys me stuff =].
I don't care what he looks like, he has a GREAT personality.
We have had sex.
We haven't, but I would if I got the chance.
He knows I like him.
He doesn't even know I exist!
I've liked him for over a year.
His name starts with the letter D.
I wish we were married <3. Not anytime soon at least lols.
Sex
I'm not a virgin.
I am a virgin but want to lose it.
I know who I wanna lose it to.
Actually, I'm waiting for the perfect guy.
I lost my virginity to someone I loved very much.
I was drunk and didn't know what I was doing!
I have done sexual things under pressure.
And I regret them.
I dress sexy so guys will notice me.
Sex is something special to me, I won't give it up to just anyone.
I am NOT a whore. (CUZ DONNA IS AND IM SLUT)
I think people who have sex under the age of 15 are disgusting.
You should be married to have sex!
I looooove sex =).
I couldn't care less about it, I'm too young.
My parents still think I'm a virgin xD.
I have friends who lost their virginities, and told me every detail.
We're close like that.
// YOUR ROOM, WAKING UP //
01. What color are your walls? Pastel pink and purple
02. What color is your bedspread/sheets? Multicoloured stripes
03. What color is your rug? Don’t have one in my room.. o_O
04. Any posters/bulletin boards/designs? Used to.. -_-;
05. Do you have a tv? no
06. Do you have a phone? They won’t let me even if I pay for the bills.
07. Do you have your own computer? HAHA.. no.
08. Do you have a desk? No. I don’t use it.
09. What are your most treasured belongings in your room? The stuff I wrote in those stupid notebooks, pictures, and my memory box. O_O
10. Do you have any fancy lights in your room? Lol.. no. I’m not a typical ordinary girl. I’m weird..
// GETTING READY //
01. What is the first thing you do when you wake up? I tell myself to open my eyes and stand up.
02. Anything unusual? What do you mean..?
03. Do you pick out your clothes the night before school? No. Only at civies and stuff that are important.
04. Do you try your best to look cute for school? Lol. I am nothing but.
// SCHOOL //
01. What color is your backpack? green
02. Do you try your best when it comes to school work? Yep.
03. Do you listen or doodle? I try to get a hold of music and I draw a lot..
04. What do you do right when schools over? I never plan stuff.
// HOME //
When you come home are you...
01. Miserable? Like 99.9% of the time.
02. Happy? Like 0.1 % of the time.
03. Tired? 100%
Other...
01. Do you take walks around your neighborhood sometimes? I would but I’m scared… I wanna do it in the dark one time. -_-
02. What are some hobbies of yours? Singing, drawing, chatting, chilling, being retarded, music, reading, phone…
03. Do you collect anything? Jewellery
04. What do you do in your spare time? Phone, tv, music, computer, homework-ish, read, draw, sleep
05. Are you in love, or at least falling? I might be in love. Then again, I am also weird and retarded. So…
// NIGHT TIME //
01. What do you do before you go to bed? Reminisce about stuff that I shouldn’t think about because it depresses me more, usually cry.. to sleep, plan things on what to do and never do them the next day…?
02. Do you kiss your parents/guardians goodnight, or just say "goodnight"? none of that sweet lovey dovey stuff happen here.
03. What way do you sleep (ex: on your side, tummy, etc.)? side.
04. Do you like your life? I’m satisfied despite my depressing phase..
// FAVS //
01. Song: in my <33 playlist..
02. CD: JOJO/ keisha chante
03. Movie: don’t give up on us
04. Food: usually anything
05. Thing to do in spare time: comp, phone, draw, read, sleep
06. Color Combos: green and brown, green and khaki, green and hot pink, blue and grey, grey and hot pink, orange and green, orange and blue, yellow and white, yellow and green
07. TV show: … dunno..
08. Music groups: green day, metallica, panic at the disco
09. Alcoholic drink: that thing.. the one I drank with my cousins in the basement.. rum or brandy? I dunno. I forgot. And those lime and chocolate flavoured ones. Bacardi and smirnoff. XD
10. Vacation Spot: somewhere nice and purdy and relaxing
11. Sport: volleyball, basketball, badminton
12. Place to shop: garage, stitches, fairweather, ub… etc
13. Actor: I dunno.. anyone good.
14. Actress: any one good..
14. Toothpaste: colgate cinnamon thingy..
15. Shampoo: pantene and dove.
// WHICH ONE //
01. Basketball/Football: basketball
02. Day/Night: night because of the dark. Day because I am not ho,e.
03. Brad Pitt/Ben Affleck: Brad Pitt.
04. 1 pillow/2 pillows: two
05. Dog/Cat: dog
06. Florida/Hawaii: hawaii
07. Candy/Flowers: Candy
08. Bacon bits/Croutons: I love both with dressing.. o_O
09. Necklace/Bracelet: necklace
10. Vanilla/Chocolate: chocolate
11. Kisses/Hugs: depends.. ;)
12. Ice Cream/Yogurt: ice cream
13. Pepsi/Coke: coke
14. Short Hair/Long Hair: long
15. Cookies/Brownies: depends..
// DO YOU... //
01. have cable: yeah
02. watch mtv: sure
03. watch vh1: I heard of it. I just dunno what.
04. have braces: I need it.
05. have freckles: nope. Im a zitbarfbag.
(..number?!) sleep with a stuffed animal: no.. im such a boring funless girl.
06. have a watch: all ran out of batteries.
07. sing in the shower: that’s my stage. Where I actually try and do my best.
08. carry a wallet: yep.
09. currently have a crush: pffft
10. have a cell phone: no.. :/
11. have a photo album: yes..
12. believe in God: Yes.
13. think the devil exists: Yeah.
14. believe in heaven and hell:chyeah..
15. wear jewelry: yep.
16. like to drink water: of course.
17. drive: I wish.
18. have a best friend: sure..
// HAVE YOU... //
01. failed your driving test: no..
02. gotten in a car accident: yes. o_o
03. broken any bones: nope..
04. gotten drunk: kinda..
05. cheated on a test: yeaaahh.
06. beat up anybody: verbally, sure.
07. gotten beat up: go ahead..
08. done drugs: what kind? The advil tylenol kind?
09. taken a dance class: nope/
10. gone to summer camp: uh no..
11. been on a roller coaster: yeah..
// TOP FIVE PLACES OF THE MOMENT//
01. HOME
02. CRISTEL’S HOUSE
03. PMALL, TOWN, PARKWAY
04. HIS PLACE.. =(
05. WALKING..
// LAST... //
01. Last car ride: today cristel’s dad dropped me off.
02. Last good cry: yseterday.. _--;
03. Last movie seen: all these flip movies.. and tokyo drift in theatres.. o_O
04. Last book read: that was then, this is now.
05. Last cuss word uttered: asshole.
06. Last beverage drank: water
07. Last food eaten: smarties
08. Last phone call: I don’t remember..
09. Last tv show watched: zoey 101
10. Last time showered: this morning.
11. Last shoes worn: my reeboks.
12. Last cd played: old burnt cds..
13. Last item bought: candy bag..
14. Last downloaded: now that I have you
15. Last annoyance: um.. him. -_-; and me.
16. Last disappointment: him and me.
17. Last words said: can I see?
18. Last sleep: yesterday night
19. Last IM: donna
20. Last ice cream eaten: cookies and cream and I added smarties to it..
21. Last time amused: I don’t remember.. I think in halloween about how much candy there is..
22. Last time wanting to die: today
23. Last time in love: now.
24. Last shirt worn: this white thing im wearing..
25. Last pants worn: my baggy grey tommy pants.
27. Last belt worn: this pink one with holess..
28. Jewelry worn daily: earrings and that ‘a’ necklace he gave
29. Last poster looked at: the one I made..
30. Last show attended: that strip show.. kdding.
// IN THE PAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU... //
01. Cried: yes.
02. Bought something: yeah.
03. Gotten sick: of things, yeah.
04. Sang: yep..
05. Eaten: smartiesss.
06. Been kissed: its so dead.
07. Felt stupid: everyday
08. wanted to tell someone you love them, but didn't: yeah.
09. Moved on: from my depression? no
10. Talked to an ex: ur mom.
11. Missed an ex: my mom.
12. Talked to someone you've got a crush on: ur face.
13. Fought with your parents: fuck them..
// SOCIAL LIFE //
01. Best girl friend(s): cristel, donna, julienne-ish
02. Best guy friend(s): paul, marius, julius
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: paul
04. Hobbies: draw, comp, talk, chill, read
05. Cell or Pager: no
06. Are you the center of attention: I couldn’t care less.
07. Would you rather be with friends or on a date? Id rather be alone these days.
08. Do you have a job: soon…
// PERSONAL //
01. Who's your role model: julienne. Real and true and don’t give a shit about anyone.
02. Pet peeves: fakes, hypocrites, those people who try so hard to get noticed, lots of things, and myself.
03. Ever liked someone you had no chance with: no fucking comment.
04. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: I won’t tell you..
05. Ever been cheated on: not yet
06. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship
07. Do you want to get married: sure
08. Do you want to have kids: 3 at the max
09. Are you happy with who you are: hah.. no.
10. Are you happy with your life: sure..
11. If you could change one thing in your life right now, what would it be: this and that..