When the pain fades......
I'm tired of alot of things. Most of those things are people related and others just life in general. Bad things happen for no reason than the fact that they do. Its not personal on the part of nature. People make everything personal, like thinking that they are the target of some grand plan by the cosmos to screw them every chance possible. I see people who have nothing, no one to cling to, left to drift in a sea of selfish, horrible people. I'm upset, emotionally drained after this year. I spent so much times trying to make everything ok with everyone else I forget to take care of myself. Now I'm really, really fat, as in pushin 270 fat. I try to get to the gym to work out but I made a nearly impossible schedule for myself. This time I gave myself a better schedule. I can't go to the gym for a while now because my shoulder, arm and back are still giving me fits and hurting from the accident. I guess I could call on Monday to get an appt to see my doctor about what excercise I can do while the muscles, tendons, and all that heals. They told me that if it didn't imporve in two weeks to come back and they'd go from there. Nothing is broken, they took about 15 X-rays. I cried once during the time I was there because of the pain. Its a little better, but I've been hurting like hell tonight. I'll drug myself again once I'm home. I can't take all of the meds and come to work and expect not to be asleep on my desk or so groggy that I can't do anything.