izzy... don't eat shit off the rug...
i don't know what the hell she could possibly be eating... i just vacuumed today.... i have no idea how to spell vacuum... vaccum? i really don't know.... i've always had a mental block against that word.... i'm writing all kinds of fucked up.... i had a couple of beers tonight.... one at stout's... then we eventually ended up at the diner about an hour between.... there i had another beer..... i was already kinda funky after just one.... perhaps because i had smoked a couple of hours earlier... i don't know... but i got home and took izzy out and then came in and smoked a bowl... (what adult behavior)... speaking of being an adult... today a few of my mom's cousins came over.... it was a very interesting experience for me... and greg as well i think.... it was cool to see the interaction between the generation before us of luna cousins.... and my mom's cousin rick looks so much like my grandfather it's a bit spooky... but really really really cool all at the same time.... these 3 cousins of my mom's happen to be 2 brothers and a sister... so it could have been equated to like.... me getting together with greg, jay and vicki 20 years from now.... what a fucking bugout... it's making me feel all funky inside.... like i'm bugging a bit.... maybe it's because me, greg, jay and vicki are the only single one's left.... or so it seems... that just dawned on me... although now vicki is engaged to mike.... which i have to say i have my worries with that relationship.... they are a little freaky together.... and frankly.... i don't really feel like vicki wants to marry mike any time soon.... i'm not sure who i would discuss that with... i mean i think i could discuss it with jay or greg.... i mean it's just observation and opinion.... i just worry for them... everything happened so fast.... it was like a whirlwind... they set a date that is like forever in the future... and it's the anniversary of the day he had his heart surgery.... i don't know... that kinda freaks me out a little bit... of course i'm also completely zooted right now... i don't even really know how i'm typing.... what i really want to be doing right now is hanging out with miami... or at least talking to her... telling her all sorts of things that i shouldn't... letting my mind imagine things that i shouldn't... i may meet her soon... it's in the works... i have no idea what we're going to do or where we're going to meet... not a clue... i have met quite a few people offline before and never had this much anxiety over it... the whole thing is just crazy.... but it's so filling.... i feel like i had so many things going on tonight.... i feel like i touched on most... but i'm not sure that i finished a single thought in this entire entry... but that's okay... because this is strictly an exercise in creative psychology slash poetry (yes i wrote out the slash because i want to make sure it is read as such) but for who to read?
i love when i sing a random song in the morning after i shower and then 14 hours later it comes on.... :)
slow ride take it easy slow ride take it easy slow ride take it easy slow ride take it easy slow ride take it easy
i'm in the mood the rhythm is right
move to the music you're on all night
oooooooo slow ride
oooooooo slow ride take it easy
or something like that.... i was so born in the wrong decade... but i make the most of it now.... i listen to all kinds of music... but when it comes down to it... i always end up going back to "classic rock".... perhaps that's why i really dig Antigone Rising so much... because they are so classic rock but so fresh at the same time.... and the fact that they're all beautiful and talented doesn't hurt either... i look forward to the day when all these people around me first hear AR's single and it sails them to stardom.... they'll all be like... hey, isn't that the band you followed around for years.... and i'll be like, yeah.... hello... i tried to explain to y'all.... you just don't know what you're missing....
i think i'm beginning to pass out... but i really don't want to go to sleep just yet...
wow they just went from FOGHAT's "SLow Ride" to EDGAR WINTER's "FRee Ride".... interesting.... if that was totally random, it's pretty funny....
20 years from now i will be 47.... but 20 years still feels really long to me... and for some reason.... 47 still seems really far away... i wonder if aging will ever really truly bug me out... because so far... it hasn't really.... (wow, really enough?!) i should probably just go to sleep... but i want to write... i was looking at my lj calendar the other night.... and i realized this is my 3rd year writing in this thing... when i first started i wrote in it a lot... then it would waiver a bit.... then there were some months that i didn't even post once.... then it would flare up again... and this seems to be one of those flares... i'm sure if i read through them all i could analyze it all and maybe have another epiphany.... but fuck it....that's pretty funny....
i think i really should get a haircut... i can't even describe my hair right now.... i feel like some action p.i. from a 70's tv show or something...... this curly fro.... it's outta control.... am i gonna end up just shaving it all off again anyway??? most probably.... why am i doing it? just to go through with something i guess....
i love when i sing a random song in the morning after i shower and then 14 hours later it comes on.... :)
slow ride take it easy slow ride take it easy slow ride take it easy slow ride take it easy slow ride take it easy
i'm in the mood the rhythm is right
move to the music you're on all night
oooooooo slow ride
oooooooo slow ride take it easy
or something like that.... i was so born in the wrong decade... but i make the most of it now.... i listen to all kinds of music... but when it comes down to it... i always end up going back to "classic rock".... perhaps that's why i really dig Antigone Rising so much... because they are so classic rock but so fresh at the same time.... and the fact that they're all beautiful and talented doesn't hurt either... i look forward to the day when all these people around me first hear AR's single and it sails them to stardom.... they'll all be like... hey, isn't that the band you followed around for years.... and i'll be like, yeah.... hello... i tried to explain to y'all.... you just don't know what you're missing....
i think i'm beginning to pass out... but i really don't want to go to sleep just yet...
wow they just went from FOGHAT's "SLow Ride" to EDGAR WINTER's "FRee Ride".... interesting.... if that was totally random, it's pretty funny....
20 years from now i will be 47.... but 20 years still feels really long to me... and for some reason.... 47 still seems really far away... i wonder if aging will ever really truly bug me out... because so far... it hasn't really.... (wow, really enough?!) i should probably just go to sleep... but i want to write... i was looking at my lj calendar the other night.... and i realized this is my 3rd year writing in this thing... when i first started i wrote in it a lot... then it would waiver a bit.... then there were some months that i didn't even post once.... then it would flare up again... and this seems to be one of those flares... i'm sure if i read through them all i could analyze it all and maybe have another epiphany.... but fuck it....that's pretty funny....
i think i really should get a haircut... i can't even describe my hair right now.... i feel like some action p.i. from a 70's tv show or something...... this curly fro.... it's outta control.... am i gonna end up just shaving it all off again anyway??? most probably.... why am i doing it? just to go through with something i guess....