out of control
its back. that feeling. that out of control panicked feeling. i am trying so hard just to breathe. i feel like my skin is crawling. i don't know if i should scream or cry or run till i collapse. it is getting harder and harder to communicate with others. no one understands. they don't see the panic. they don't feel the energy that is radiating out of me threatening to burst from my skin. i found myself clawing at my skin while i was correcting papers. i didn't even notice. what is safe? how do i get it all out and get in control and stay safe?