End of the year
The school year is finally winding down. Kind of. I feel like I am busier than ever. Perhaps that is because I am now doing the job of two teachers. I am glad Amy had her baby but it is really stressful having a sub in the other 4th grade class. I am having to play disciplinarian for both rooms and get everything organized and ready for next year. On top of all that I have 56 sets of memory papers to grade as well as stories to correct and projects to grade. I'm not even bothering with regular homework anymore if it is done then it is done. I don't have the time to check it all. I am still staying 3 days a week with Kurt trying to make up all that work he missed from being out almost all winter. It would be one thing if he was a bright kid to begin with. His mother and I celebrated today because after Kurt and I went over his SS test and he changed some answers he came out with a 75. That is the best grade he has gotten all year. I feel like I am going crazy with all the details of end of the year work. I haven't even started the report cards...
THen there is my sister's wedding. She keeps changing details and I am struggling to keep up with her. Today she sent out an e-mail asking someone to help me because I am too stressed out. Well yes...I am. If she would give me 2 weeks I wouldn't be though. Whatever.
And then there is Mike. He is protesting the break. I had him give me an explanation as to what the hell he is doing with his future and his reasoning for not wanting to get engaged. WHat he came back with SOUNDED really good but it had some major flaws. He doesn't seem to grasp that he blew it when he started going on and on about not wanting to leave New York and trying to find ways to say. In his own little way that was saying "screw" to our relationship. I couldn't take another year of NY and it was unfair of him to even consider it. I have put my life on hold so that I could be with him. Is it really asking too much that after 3 years he ACTUALLY lives in the same state as me? I am tired of waiting for him to figure his life out while he rebels against growing up. I have grown up. I have a job, I own a car and I am ready to move forward. Perhaps that means that I should move down to Florida. If he needs the time to figure himself out and grow then why should I be forced to stay here and wait for it to happen? He left for NY so he could grow. AHH I get so frustrated I can't even think straight. He makes me wonderfully happy when we are together and absolutely miserable the rest of the time. How do you deal with that?
Tomorrow I have the second half of my meeting with Paul. He blew me off the first time and showed up 20 minutes late. Hopefully he won't forget this time. God the world is an irritating place sometimes.
THen there is my sister's wedding. She keeps changing details and I am struggling to keep up with her. Today she sent out an e-mail asking someone to help me because I am too stressed out. Well yes...I am. If she would give me 2 weeks I wouldn't be though. Whatever.
And then there is Mike. He is protesting the break. I had him give me an explanation as to what the hell he is doing with his future and his reasoning for not wanting to get engaged. WHat he came back with SOUNDED really good but it had some major flaws. He doesn't seem to grasp that he blew it when he started going on and on about not wanting to leave New York and trying to find ways to say. In his own little way that was saying "screw" to our relationship. I couldn't take another year of NY and it was unfair of him to even consider it. I have put my life on hold so that I could be with him. Is it really asking too much that after 3 years he ACTUALLY lives in the same state as me? I am tired of waiting for him to figure his life out while he rebels against growing up. I have grown up. I have a job, I own a car and I am ready to move forward. Perhaps that means that I should move down to Florida. If he needs the time to figure himself out and grow then why should I be forced to stay here and wait for it to happen? He left for NY so he could grow. AHH I get so frustrated I can't even think straight. He makes me wonderfully happy when we are together and absolutely miserable the rest of the time. How do you deal with that?
Tomorrow I have the second half of my meeting with Paul. He blew me off the first time and showed up 20 minutes late. Hopefully he won't forget this time. God the world is an irritating place sometimes.