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I sort of feel like I should break up with my boyfriend. I'm not happy anymore.
... that or I need adjustments to my medication. But then again, there's only so much medication can fix. If you feel like you've lost a connection with someone or try to improve your life together and there's only one of you willing to work at it-- perhaps its time to move on. I was in a relationship for 3 years where I kept waiting for them to come to my level of wishing things to change. Yeah- that didnt work out so well.
Prob is, steven thinks he's trying and tells me he's in love with me. He got me some neat things for my birthday; but no birthday card. I'm not sure why that bothered me. I've always cherished birthday cards and display them on my wall the whole year and sometimes longer. I think it's an easy way to express how you feel about someone (if you find the right card) but it never occured to him to get one. I casually asked why he didnt get a card.. and he said... but I got you presents! I acknowledged that and said I loved them. He then asked if it would have been better to get a card and no presents. First of all that's a totally diff extreme, but I thought about it and I would have loved a card and not missed the things he got me. It reminds me of how much he says he loves me. Same with jewelry (cheap even!!!) it's just something that you can go back and read later on and be reminded of how you felt then, etc. He said that I know he loves me and that he doesnt need that stuff because he knows that I love him, but ... I guess guys dont understand.
Maybe I'm making too big a deal out of it. I just wanted a card.
....and I dont feel like breaking up with him because he didnt get me a card, but more so because he doesnt understand me at all; or women in general really. Part of me is tired of trying to explain myself constantly in relationships and justify why things are important to me and seemingly make it painful for someone else to understand. I'd like someone to just "get me". Maybe that's wrong, I don't know.
... that or I need adjustments to my medication. But then again, there's only so much medication can fix. If you feel like you've lost a connection with someone or try to improve your life together and there's only one of you willing to work at it-- perhaps its time to move on. I was in a relationship for 3 years where I kept waiting for them to come to my level of wishing things to change. Yeah- that didnt work out so well.
Prob is, steven thinks he's trying and tells me he's in love with me. He got me some neat things for my birthday; but no birthday card. I'm not sure why that bothered me. I've always cherished birthday cards and display them on my wall the whole year and sometimes longer. I think it's an easy way to express how you feel about someone (if you find the right card) but it never occured to him to get one. I casually asked why he didnt get a card.. and he said... but I got you presents! I acknowledged that and said I loved them. He then asked if it would have been better to get a card and no presents. First of all that's a totally diff extreme, but I thought about it and I would have loved a card and not missed the things he got me. It reminds me of how much he says he loves me. Same with jewelry (cheap even!!!) it's just something that you can go back and read later on and be reminded of how you felt then, etc. He said that I know he loves me and that he doesnt need that stuff because he knows that I love him, but ... I guess guys dont understand.
Maybe I'm making too big a deal out of it. I just wanted a card.
....and I dont feel like breaking up with him because he didnt get me a card, but more so because he doesnt understand me at all; or women in general really. Part of me is tired of trying to explain myself constantly in relationships and justify why things are important to me and seemingly make it painful for someone else to understand. I'd like someone to just "get me". Maybe that's wrong, I don't know.