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I know why boys don't like me...at least around here....I'm loud and obnoxious and not really attractive. How does that somehow change when I leave Berea??? Honestly, I try to just be me all the time and I basically am, but sometimes I get crazy and do weird crap and I think that's what turns them all off...whatever. I mean, if I was hott but still acted like I do now would it make a difference? If I was better at running? At school? At debate? At life????????? Seriously...I just don't know what I can do...I know he doesn't like me and ya know I would even go for second best, but it's just not gonna happen. Man I need to get some soon...