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[twookie]

and then the lights came on in the middle of the night, what I should do with my life, how I should spend my time...on Saturday my life got turned upside down, and I did it to myself. Reno called and woke me up at noon, only a few hours after I had gotten home and gone to sleep. he had some how figured out my MySpace password and was calling me out

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[tribal_fuk]

I think soemtimes you really need to sit down and really think about what you are saying and actually doing. Considering the fact you want me to do good, you want me to not do distructive things such as drink yet you would do something like this to me? I feel as if your words and actions don't make any sense. Just like you are trying to force me out of your life with not even really taking a good look at things. I have done all I can in the last few days to try not to upset you, I mean sometimes I called a few times more then I should but alot of the times I wasnt calling so I would give you your space. It's hard for me I breakdown and cry randomly at any moment. You are the one who opened the communication last night and told me that passed up bowling to come home and talk to me? You're the one who said today was online day. Which gave me all the option to speak with you. It's a damn shame that it has came to this and you have done it all. I think you are trying to find ways to push me farther and farther out of your life as you run away from your emotions. You said earlier that is how you deal with things, that isn't dealing that is running. When you stopped last night and talked to me it wasnt oh so bad but when we talked this morning and it was about the relationship I had with you, you high tailed it back on that road and started to run again. You don't love alabama, you are settleing for it, you dont like the people you are hanging out with either. They are just people to fill your void. Just take a look sometime and realize this. Me and you used to make fun of such people you hang out with now, now it's a different story huh? You used to talk shit about pink and all that too, now who fists your bum for the color pink? Oh yea, remember how you used to talk shit about nautical stars too? I think one of your friends has two of them. So quick to fucking talk shit at some point in your life but its all so different now because you are making yourself wrap around alabama and these people to excape the reality of pain. I am not concieted or anything but I know for damn sure deep down, you dont feel that good. You spoke perviously about how you know because you experienced the same thing. Well I know, I've been in your shoes.

[twookie]

you don't know anything about me, and it's sad, because I wasted two and a half years of my life with you. you know that I've been leaning towards wearing color again, you always refused to let me buy non-black clothes. now that you're gone that's changed. I'm wearing a purple tank top right now, and jeans. and I like it. my world doesn't revolve around you anymore. I am happy and you are just too bitter to accept that. so you make up all this bullshit, you tell me that you know how I feel when you really don't know much of anything at all. I'm sick of arguing. I'm sick of defending myself. as I said last night, and the night before that, I know in my heart what is true and it doesn't matter to me a bit what you think. I tried to hide it from you but you pryed and you found out. just leave me alone. I wanted to help you but you're not willing to help yourself. I broke up with you because you make me miserable. I'm not going to allow you to make me miserable now that we're no longer together.

Reno. please. just let me go. if you love me, let me go.