Holly Golightly: You know those days when you get the mean reds?
Paul Varjak: The mean reds, you mean like the blues?
Holly Golightly:
No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?
It's funny what can set you off, break you down.
Cleaning up 2.5 years worth of paperwork today and I found this - the envelope which once held an old valentine from Brett. I don't even know why I still have the envelope lying around, perhaps because it has his writing on it and he so rarely writes, it's like a little piece of him.
I lost it then, sitting alone in the room, envelope clutched in my hand, sobbing.
It's been two and a half years. Am I ever going to see you again?