Not so much.
Jiyong believed his father hated him; after all it was his fault the man lost his wife. She didn’t make it though child birth, so it was his fault he didn’t have a mother or siblings. That was the only reason he could find for his father’s behavior. His father never could find time for him, too much of a workaholic to be bothered with a child. Taeyang and Seung ri shared in this complaint, none of their fathers paid much attention to them… but they both had loving mothers at home waiting on them.
That and they didn’t have a strict list of rules.
Jiyong was always taught to follow certain rules. House has to be clean, no visitors past six, have to be home not a second later than four, have to keep an above average GPA, no dating, no one over when unattended, no visiting the downtown area, no non-label brands, no queers… Yeah Jiyong hated his rules, he broke half of them before sunset, and if his father wasn’t home he usually broke more.
For the last three months he’s been lying, a lot, to everyone. Lying to Seung hyun about his age, to his friends about where he was going, to his father about where his money was going. So many lies, Jiyong just didn’t know what to do with them anymore. The lies were building two by two.
The pressure started to build and build. Jiyong was surprised no one had caught him yet, no one had punished him yet…
He rolled over a bit to look at Seung hyun, who was sleeping next to him. Jiyong felt like he’d lied to him the most, he was starting to wonder what would happen if he told him the truth. He knew Seung hyun would understand if he found a way to word it correctly…
Now first he has to figure out how to tell him…
~*~*~*~*~*~
Jiyong sat in class quietly watching the teacher rant on about something. He’d taken to wearing a beanie during class, as to avoid attention for his outrageous hair color that Seung hyun had talked him into keeping. His phone vibrated softly in his lap, he glanced down at it reading the screen in hopes of the teacher not noticing.
So… Daesung is in class, I’m going 2 pick him up 4 lunch… wanna join us?
Jiyong sighed lightly before texting back.
<3 2 but cant, I have a test I need 2 study 4. Dinner tonight instead?
It didn’t take too long before Jiyong received a response.
Well, maybe I can help u study. ;)
This is where lying became complicated. There was no test because Jiyong wasn’t in collage, so there was no need to study. Not that he could study around Seung hyun because Jiyong didn’t have any collage material, but mostly because he gave into Jiyong’s sexual impulses too easily.
Wouldn’t work, u r 2 tempting
Well, maybe we can just meet up for a bit, I miss u I’m in front of the library… you should come visit me.
Jiyong bit his lip and debated on walking out of class and driving over there right that second. He wanted to see Seung hyun so bad…
Can’t in class, c u l8r
Jiyong then turned his phone off.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Jiyong sat in his living room, watching Taeyang play some silly game on his Wii. They were waiting on Seung ri to show up so that they could start studying, when Jiyong heard a familiar sound. He quickly looked out the window and saw Seung hyun’s motorbike in the driveway and the rider getting off.
“Who’s that?” Taeyang asked as he glanced out the window really quickly.
“No one important, I’ll get rid of them, be right back.” Jiyong said quickly as he ran outside.
“Didn’t I tell you to stop coming over?” He hissed as he grabbed Seung hyun’s shoulder.
“Look, it’s been two weeks since I’d seen you last, I just wanted to be sure I still had a boyfr-“
“Shush!! Look, I’ll let you know when I can come over again, but not right now.”
“Jiyong, I know you. You can hardly go two hours without having your hand down your pants, or some bodies else’s for that matter… Now why can’t I just come in for a bit?”
Jiyong stayed quiet for a moment. “Look, come back around eight and I’ll stay the night.” He said quietly.
“Why can’t I just come in now and stay the night here for once?”
“Because you’re breaking a lot of rules, that I would pay for, and I don’t have time to fix it. Hello there Mrs. Lee.” Jiyong waved politely to the woman in the overpriced minivan. “Thank you so much for dropping Seung ri off today.”
“You’re welcome Jiyong… Um… Who’s this… person…?” She said as she eyed Seung hyun.
“Oh no need for alarm Mrs. Lee, this young man was just lost and I was giving him directions. He’s leaving now, right?” Jiyong looked over at Seung hyun as he rolled his eyes in annoyance.
“Yes sir, I was leaving. Thank you so much for those directions, I’d be lost without you.”
Jiyong could feel the anger rolling off Seung hyun as he put his helmet on before burning rubber on his way out.
“Who was that horrible man?” Mrs. Lee said in an appalled tone. Jiyong just shrugged his shoulders before walking Seung ri to the door.
It was a bit pathetic how much he wished he could have just left with Seung hyun. He sighed and turned back to the house. Study party went well, despite the fact that Taeyang and Seung ri kept shooting him strange glances throughout the entire night.
~*~*~*~*~*~
“You knew that guy right?” Taeyang asked after they’d dropped Seung ri off.
Jiyong shook his head in a ‘no’ gesture.
“You know, Seung ri and I don’t care if you know him… You just…”
“I don’t know him, don’t worry about it. If he comes back I’m calling the cops, goodnight Taeyang.”
“Yeah… Well, if you every wanna talk, I am your best friend. I don’t care what you do, I’ll always be your friend. Night Ji.”
~*~*~*~*~*~
A few hours later Jiyong sat listening to Seung hyun shower. Apparently they weren’t going anywhere or doing anything tonight other than dinner and renting movies. Jiyong didn’t like this idea very much. He wanted to do something fun, they always went to parties and clubs, it was easier to lie when they didn’t get all cute and cuddly. Why was Seung hyun acting so weird tonight?
“Ready?” Seung hyun asked as he towel dried his hair.
“Are there really no parties tonight?”
“There are a few, but I figured we could just hang out. You know just the two of us.”
Jiyong huffed a bit before standing. “Fine, lets go.” He stated before turning to head out the door. Seung hyun stopped him by grabbing his wrist.
“Do you not want to be alone with me or something?”
“No, I just figured we’d be going out. I got all dressed up for nothing.”
“I thought you got all dressed up for me…” Seung hyun said with a mischievous smirk playing over his features.
Jiyong laughed a bit and slid his hand into Seung hyun’s, “Actually I figured you’d take me out and show me off some more.”
“Nah, I just want you all to myself tonight…” Seung hyun said before kissing Jiyong deeply and pushing him into the wall.
Jiyong wrapped his arms around Seung hyun’s neck and jumped up a bit, in order for his legs to attach themselves to Seung hyun’s waist, as they made out. Seung hyun pulled back just a bit. “Tell me something…”
“Anything,” Jiyong breathed.
“Why can’t I go to your place? You always get so mad when I stop by.”
Jiyong sighed, “Because you’d be breaking the rules, I don’t want to talk about it.”
Seung hyun hummed and lightly put Jiyong down. “Okay then, we have a dinner to attend to, let’s go.”
Jiyong frowned and pulled Seung hyun in for another kiss, “Can’t we be late?” He whispered onto Seung hyun’s lips.
“No, we can’t.” Seung hyun said sternly as he pulled Jiyong away and walked to the door. “Now lets go.”
~*~*~*~*~*~
“Come on baby, let’s go another round.” Jiyong breathed into Seung hyun’s ear before nipping it lightly. He laid on top of the older, and since none of the movies were very interesting they’d wound up having more than one round of sex.
“Don’t you think three times is enough? You’re not going to be able to walk tomorrow.” Seung hyun laughed as his hands ran down Jiyong’s back. “Besides, I’m getting hungry again. What do you say we hit up the McDonalds down the street?”
Jiyong laughed a bit before leaning down and kissing Seung hyun. “I love you…” He whispered before kissing him again.
“You what?” Seung hyun asked as he pulled Jiyong back a bit so that he could see the younger’s face.
Jiyong blushed and looked all flustered as he attempted to look away before repeating what he’d said. “I love you…”
Seung hyun laughed and kissed Jiyong before sitting up and fitting Jiyong into his lap. He then laid his forehead onto Jiyong’s “I love you too.” He said as he kissed Jiyong again, slowly as if he was trying to poor his love into that one kiss in hopes of Jiyong tasting what they were discussing.
Jiyong smiled a bit as he pulled back he then made a joke about getting some food because he was hungry too. He watched Seung hyun as he got dressed, dressing himself at the same time. The one little lie was starting to look bigger and bigger, but Seung hyun said he loved Jiyong too. So if they loved each other than a little age difference wasn’t going to be a big deal… Seung hyun would understand why Jiyong lied… He’d totally understand that he’s been sleeping with someone seven years younger than him… Seung hyun wouldn’t care, he loved Jiyong. He wouldn’t care that if he was discovered with Jiyong now he could be arrested for a number of things. It was like Romeo and Juliet, Romeo was way older than his Juliet, and did he care? No, he was in love. Just like Jiyong and Seung hyun.
Jiyong watched as Seung hyun picked up his wallet and went to hand it to him when something fell out. “Seung hyun I’ve something I want to tell you…” Jiyong started as Seung hyun picked up the fallen item.
Turns out it was his Id, his real Id.
“Jiyong what the hell is this?” Seung hyun asked as he looked at it. “Why does your Id say you’re fifteen?” Something in his tone was telling Jiyong that the love they were just sharing had an age limit to it that he didn’t meet.
“That’s what I wanted to tell you baby. I’m not as old as you think I am.” Jiyong said cautiously as he watched Seung hyun.
“You’re fifteen?”
“Yeah…”
“This is a joke right?”
“No, baby-“
“-Oh no, don’t call me baby. You’re fifteen. That makes me a pedophile, and a rapist, and since I’m assuming you haven’t told your father I’m probably a kidnapper too.” Seung hyun looked horrified as he handed Jiyong back his Id.
Jiyong dropped his gaze, “But that doesn’t matter because you love me right?” he whispered. He was trying to not break right there.
“I can’t love you. If I love you I can go to jail. Is that what you want, me to go to jail over you? Sorry princess that ain’t happening.” Seung hyun scoffed before walking away.
“But Romeo was like ten years older than Juliet!” He tried to reason.
“Yeah, no kid, this isn’t some stupid story. Get your shit, I’m taking you home.”
Jiyong blinked a few times as he felt his heartstrings begging to fray and shred.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
After he got off the bike and put the spare helmet up Jiyong turned to say something to Seung hyun, maybe he could convince him to just listen and things would get better. Only problem was the moment Jiyong stepped out of the way, Seung hyun sped off, leaving Jiyong alone in his driveway at four in the morning with a sore ass and a broken heart. Jiyong sat down in the yard for a moment while the shock was wearing off. He just couldn’t figure out what to do now that the only person he’d ever loved was walking out the door.
Jiyong ran into his room. He was crying so hard he could hardly see but he’d already decided what he was going to do, it really didn’t take that long. He quickly found what he was looking for and smiled.
The first cut wasn’t that deep, he didn’t want to open any veins just yet. For now he needed ink.
He pressed his figure to the cut and smeared a bloody message on his bathroom mirror. He then sat down in the tub after removing his clothes. He then brought the razor up to his wrist and bit his tongue as he quickly slashed across his arm. He watched as the wound was a pink before it started to spilling red. Jiyong closed his eyes and repeated it for another five or six times before switching wrist.
After words he sat there watching the blood drain from his body. Jiyong idly wondered if Seung hyun would even care if he was gone. He wondered what his father was going to say when the autopsy showed he’d been having sex with a man. He wondered what his friends were going to think, if it would really affect anyone.
He started to cry as he realized he wasn’t going to see Seung hyun ever again. He started to cry even harder when he realized that less than two hours ago Seung hyun was telling him that he loved him, and now he was sitting in an overpriced tub while his blood stains the basin.
He looked back to the mirror and smiled as he closed his eyes.
The note read, “You’re my only love, I hope you’ll forever know that.”
Not the end. The next part should be the end... there might be five parts in total, dunno yet.... ^^ Don't hate me for the cliffhanger! I'm sorry! You shouldn't have to wait too long for the next part! I should have that up in not time!! Once more this is for K_pop4life, and I swear your picture will tie in in the next part!! ^^;; Don't be angry!!
That and they didn’t have a strict list of rules.
Jiyong was always taught to follow certain rules. House has to be clean, no visitors past six, have to be home not a second later than four, have to keep an above average GPA, no dating, no one over when unattended, no visiting the downtown area, no non-label brands, no queers… Yeah Jiyong hated his rules, he broke half of them before sunset, and if his father wasn’t home he usually broke more.
For the last three months he’s been lying, a lot, to everyone. Lying to Seung hyun about his age, to his friends about where he was going, to his father about where his money was going. So many lies, Jiyong just didn’t know what to do with them anymore. The lies were building two by two.
The pressure started to build and build. Jiyong was surprised no one had caught him yet, no one had punished him yet…
He rolled over a bit to look at Seung hyun, who was sleeping next to him. Jiyong felt like he’d lied to him the most, he was starting to wonder what would happen if he told him the truth. He knew Seung hyun would understand if he found a way to word it correctly…
Now first he has to figure out how to tell him…
~*~*~*~*~*~
Jiyong sat in class quietly watching the teacher rant on about something. He’d taken to wearing a beanie during class, as to avoid attention for his outrageous hair color that Seung hyun had talked him into keeping. His phone vibrated softly in his lap, he glanced down at it reading the screen in hopes of the teacher not noticing.
So… Daesung is in class, I’m going 2 pick him up 4 lunch… wanna join us?
Jiyong sighed lightly before texting back.
<3 2 but cant, I have a test I need 2 study 4. Dinner tonight instead?
It didn’t take too long before Jiyong received a response.
Well, maybe I can help u study. ;)
This is where lying became complicated. There was no test because Jiyong wasn’t in collage, so there was no need to study. Not that he could study around Seung hyun because Jiyong didn’t have any collage material, but mostly because he gave into Jiyong’s sexual impulses too easily.
Wouldn’t work, u r 2 tempting
Well, maybe we can just meet up for a bit, I miss u I’m in front of the library… you should come visit me.
Jiyong bit his lip and debated on walking out of class and driving over there right that second. He wanted to see Seung hyun so bad…
Can’t in class, c u l8r
Jiyong then turned his phone off.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Jiyong sat in his living room, watching Taeyang play some silly game on his Wii. They were waiting on Seung ri to show up so that they could start studying, when Jiyong heard a familiar sound. He quickly looked out the window and saw Seung hyun’s motorbike in the driveway and the rider getting off.
“Who’s that?” Taeyang asked as he glanced out the window really quickly.
“No one important, I’ll get rid of them, be right back.” Jiyong said quickly as he ran outside.
“Didn’t I tell you to stop coming over?” He hissed as he grabbed Seung hyun’s shoulder.
“Look, it’s been two weeks since I’d seen you last, I just wanted to be sure I still had a boyfr-“
“Shush!! Look, I’ll let you know when I can come over again, but not right now.”
“Jiyong, I know you. You can hardly go two hours without having your hand down your pants, or some bodies else’s for that matter… Now why can’t I just come in for a bit?”
Jiyong stayed quiet for a moment. “Look, come back around eight and I’ll stay the night.” He said quietly.
“Why can’t I just come in now and stay the night here for once?”
“Because you’re breaking a lot of rules, that I would pay for, and I don’t have time to fix it. Hello there Mrs. Lee.” Jiyong waved politely to the woman in the overpriced minivan. “Thank you so much for dropping Seung ri off today.”
“You’re welcome Jiyong… Um… Who’s this… person…?” She said as she eyed Seung hyun.
“Oh no need for alarm Mrs. Lee, this young man was just lost and I was giving him directions. He’s leaving now, right?” Jiyong looked over at Seung hyun as he rolled his eyes in annoyance.
“Yes sir, I was leaving. Thank you so much for those directions, I’d be lost without you.”
Jiyong could feel the anger rolling off Seung hyun as he put his helmet on before burning rubber on his way out.
“Who was that horrible man?” Mrs. Lee said in an appalled tone. Jiyong just shrugged his shoulders before walking Seung ri to the door.
It was a bit pathetic how much he wished he could have just left with Seung hyun. He sighed and turned back to the house. Study party went well, despite the fact that Taeyang and Seung ri kept shooting him strange glances throughout the entire night.
~*~*~*~*~*~
“You knew that guy right?” Taeyang asked after they’d dropped Seung ri off.
Jiyong shook his head in a ‘no’ gesture.
“You know, Seung ri and I don’t care if you know him… You just…”
“I don’t know him, don’t worry about it. If he comes back I’m calling the cops, goodnight Taeyang.”
“Yeah… Well, if you every wanna talk, I am your best friend. I don’t care what you do, I’ll always be your friend. Night Ji.”
~*~*~*~*~*~
A few hours later Jiyong sat listening to Seung hyun shower. Apparently they weren’t going anywhere or doing anything tonight other than dinner and renting movies. Jiyong didn’t like this idea very much. He wanted to do something fun, they always went to parties and clubs, it was easier to lie when they didn’t get all cute and cuddly. Why was Seung hyun acting so weird tonight?
“Ready?” Seung hyun asked as he towel dried his hair.
“Are there really no parties tonight?”
“There are a few, but I figured we could just hang out. You know just the two of us.”
Jiyong huffed a bit before standing. “Fine, lets go.” He stated before turning to head out the door. Seung hyun stopped him by grabbing his wrist.
“Do you not want to be alone with me or something?”
“No, I just figured we’d be going out. I got all dressed up for nothing.”
“I thought you got all dressed up for me…” Seung hyun said with a mischievous smirk playing over his features.
Jiyong laughed a bit and slid his hand into Seung hyun’s, “Actually I figured you’d take me out and show me off some more.”
“Nah, I just want you all to myself tonight…” Seung hyun said before kissing Jiyong deeply and pushing him into the wall.
Jiyong wrapped his arms around Seung hyun’s neck and jumped up a bit, in order for his legs to attach themselves to Seung hyun’s waist, as they made out. Seung hyun pulled back just a bit. “Tell me something…”
“Anything,” Jiyong breathed.
“Why can’t I go to your place? You always get so mad when I stop by.”
Jiyong sighed, “Because you’d be breaking the rules, I don’t want to talk about it.”
Seung hyun hummed and lightly put Jiyong down. “Okay then, we have a dinner to attend to, let’s go.”
Jiyong frowned and pulled Seung hyun in for another kiss, “Can’t we be late?” He whispered onto Seung hyun’s lips.
“No, we can’t.” Seung hyun said sternly as he pulled Jiyong away and walked to the door. “Now lets go.”
~*~*~*~*~*~
“Come on baby, let’s go another round.” Jiyong breathed into Seung hyun’s ear before nipping it lightly. He laid on top of the older, and since none of the movies were very interesting they’d wound up having more than one round of sex.
“Don’t you think three times is enough? You’re not going to be able to walk tomorrow.” Seung hyun laughed as his hands ran down Jiyong’s back. “Besides, I’m getting hungry again. What do you say we hit up the McDonalds down the street?”
Jiyong laughed a bit before leaning down and kissing Seung hyun. “I love you…” He whispered before kissing him again.
“You what?” Seung hyun asked as he pulled Jiyong back a bit so that he could see the younger’s face.
Jiyong blushed and looked all flustered as he attempted to look away before repeating what he’d said. “I love you…”
Seung hyun laughed and kissed Jiyong before sitting up and fitting Jiyong into his lap. He then laid his forehead onto Jiyong’s “I love you too.” He said as he kissed Jiyong again, slowly as if he was trying to poor his love into that one kiss in hopes of Jiyong tasting what they were discussing.
Jiyong smiled a bit as he pulled back he then made a joke about getting some food because he was hungry too. He watched Seung hyun as he got dressed, dressing himself at the same time. The one little lie was starting to look bigger and bigger, but Seung hyun said he loved Jiyong too. So if they loved each other than a little age difference wasn’t going to be a big deal… Seung hyun would understand why Jiyong lied… He’d totally understand that he’s been sleeping with someone seven years younger than him… Seung hyun wouldn’t care, he loved Jiyong. He wouldn’t care that if he was discovered with Jiyong now he could be arrested for a number of things. It was like Romeo and Juliet, Romeo was way older than his Juliet, and did he care? No, he was in love. Just like Jiyong and Seung hyun.
Jiyong watched as Seung hyun picked up his wallet and went to hand it to him when something fell out. “Seung hyun I’ve something I want to tell you…” Jiyong started as Seung hyun picked up the fallen item.
Turns out it was his Id, his real Id.
“Jiyong what the hell is this?” Seung hyun asked as he looked at it. “Why does your Id say you’re fifteen?” Something in his tone was telling Jiyong that the love they were just sharing had an age limit to it that he didn’t meet.
“That’s what I wanted to tell you baby. I’m not as old as you think I am.” Jiyong said cautiously as he watched Seung hyun.
“You’re fifteen?”
“Yeah…”
“This is a joke right?”
“No, baby-“
“-Oh no, don’t call me baby. You’re fifteen. That makes me a pedophile, and a rapist, and since I’m assuming you haven’t told your father I’m probably a kidnapper too.” Seung hyun looked horrified as he handed Jiyong back his Id.
Jiyong dropped his gaze, “But that doesn’t matter because you love me right?” he whispered. He was trying to not break right there.
“I can’t love you. If I love you I can go to jail. Is that what you want, me to go to jail over you? Sorry princess that ain’t happening.” Seung hyun scoffed before walking away.
“But Romeo was like ten years older than Juliet!” He tried to reason.
“Yeah, no kid, this isn’t some stupid story. Get your shit, I’m taking you home.”
Jiyong blinked a few times as he felt his heartstrings begging to fray and shred.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
After he got off the bike and put the spare helmet up Jiyong turned to say something to Seung hyun, maybe he could convince him to just listen and things would get better. Only problem was the moment Jiyong stepped out of the way, Seung hyun sped off, leaving Jiyong alone in his driveway at four in the morning with a sore ass and a broken heart. Jiyong sat down in the yard for a moment while the shock was wearing off. He just couldn’t figure out what to do now that the only person he’d ever loved was walking out the door.
Jiyong ran into his room. He was crying so hard he could hardly see but he’d already decided what he was going to do, it really didn’t take that long. He quickly found what he was looking for and smiled.
The first cut wasn’t that deep, he didn’t want to open any veins just yet. For now he needed ink.
He pressed his figure to the cut and smeared a bloody message on his bathroom mirror. He then sat down in the tub after removing his clothes. He then brought the razor up to his wrist and bit his tongue as he quickly slashed across his arm. He watched as the wound was a pink before it started to spilling red. Jiyong closed his eyes and repeated it for another five or six times before switching wrist.
After words he sat there watching the blood drain from his body. Jiyong idly wondered if Seung hyun would even care if he was gone. He wondered what his father was going to say when the autopsy showed he’d been having sex with a man. He wondered what his friends were going to think, if it would really affect anyone.
He started to cry as he realized he wasn’t going to see Seung hyun ever again. He started to cry even harder when he realized that less than two hours ago Seung hyun was telling him that he loved him, and now he was sitting in an overpriced tub while his blood stains the basin.
He looked back to the mirror and smiled as he closed his eyes.
The note read, “You’re my only love, I hope you’ll forever know that.”
Not the end. The next part should be the end... there might be five parts in total, dunno yet.... ^^ Don't hate me for the cliffhanger! I'm sorry! You shouldn't have to wait too long for the next part! I should have that up in not time!! Once more this is for K_pop4life, and I swear your picture will tie in in the next part!! ^^;; Don't be angry!!