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I've had at least four meaningful conversations this week, and a plethora of other fun ones. I've talked to people I'm usually shy of calling, and been less afraid of looking like an ass. This among other things has lead to the last couple of weeks being the most amazing weeks in an unspecified amount of long timey-ness. I feel like there is a lot less holding me back lately and I'm less afraid of what other might think of me being myself. This change of thinking has led to a couple of its own anxiety attacks, but the fact that I keep being validated that I am not in fact an embarrassing person to be around, or a horrible monster of a person, is dissipating the waves of anxiety I have every time I've reached out of my comfort zone this week. Even now I'm afraid that someone is going to read this and say "actually you are a little annoying" (which would easier to brush off it it hadn't sort of happened before), but I'm going to post it anyway because its awesome, and I like telling people good news, even if its about myself.