Happy Canada Day
So Stephen just dropped me off at home we went down town Brockville today for Canada day . It was fun we took Brayden obviously and we went and had fish and chips and then sat at the bench and listened to live music some cover band and ate our food and then we went to the keystorm which is like a bar and grill in brockville a classy one and Stephen had a Pint i think he just likes calling it that to feel british lol..he must have said it like 20 times the whole time we where there and really its just a glass of beer. and then we walked around down town and i showed him my old apt and we talked about the dirtys standing outside the tim hortons and then we walked around by the water and we got ice cream then we found a place to watch the fire works which it was preety good fire work show for a little town ... except we where in like a woodys park kinda like andrew haden park and each time a firework would go off like 50 bats would like fly out of the trees and fly franticly around . But brayden fell asleep just before the fireworks lol poor kid he was tuckered out and then we went home but it was like packed like there where so much ppl and then where we where driving some old man yelled at us . but besides the crazy man i had a fun night stephen and i we don't go out much ebcause i dont really have many ppl to babysit and its not always good to drag brayden out but it was a fun night... and stephen brought up the whole thing with me living with him in october because my lease will be up and usally i'm kinda scared to admit how i feel but i just let it out and i said i wasn't sure if i was ready for it and he was very cool with it which i was happy.. but we shall see if he still will be when october comes around it would be nice living with stephen llike we would see eachother more and we could pool our money together and he has a nice apt its a two level one ... but its scary taking that step ... like there is always the possibilty that it might not work out and then i would have to find another place and worry about saving money for the move . & another thing i use to have a huge fear of being independent and this is my first time living on my own where its just me (and brayden) but i'm in charge and its all my space i dont know if i want to share which i feel bad for stephen because he just loves the idea of being together and because hes older 27 he wants to settle down and stuff but anywho enough with the rant
hmm what else is going on right now in my life.. Brayden isnt walking yet but he said mama a lot today where he went a long period of not saying it hes finally feeling better he was sick realy bad last week and he had to go on antibiotics which wherent fun for him because he dosnt like to take medicine he is no longer scared of the rock and ride i got him for his brithday but he only plays with it when its like in the car postion he thinks its hilarious and it has a little trunk and he puts his stuffy in there... he is still on a list for daycare but we've had no luck yet the list are very long and because hes young theres not many ppl willing to take on someone his age
hmm my family is kinda blah ... my mom and i talk on the phone from now and then and that part is ok ... but my grandpa is annoying me and i'm preety much keep all contact at a bare minimum ... a few weeks ago i was walking his dog for him which i did for like a month twice a day and it was a pain but i did it because he had surgery and sometimes if it was raining stephen would drive me and we would walk the dog... so then of course my grandpa met stephen which i try and keep like my person life out of my familys life like i dont want to talk to them about who im dating and i think that they asume the worse and they get flash backs to siddiq and i
so then after that my grandpa was like getting pissy with me and stuff and i didnt know why but i ignored it and then the last day i walked the dog he asked to talk to me so i said ok and then he basically yelled at me about "being sexually active" and "sleeping around" which like one i dont sleep around and two i'm gonna be 21 and its non of ur buissness i was in shock to think my 75 year old grandpa was telling me off because he thinks im a whore ... i just turned around and left like i couldnt even say anything and i cried all the way home... which i wish i was strong enough to not care but i do care what ppl think maybe not what everyone thinks about me but my family i do and yeah its obvious i've had sex ... but i dont think im a whore like ive maybe made some poor choices on ppl i've dated but i'm 20 years old almost 21 i dont need someone to judge me and make me feel badly for it. like i tried to take it the best way and that he was just worried for me but the more i thought about it and pictured him telling me off for accusing me for something i'm not... it just made me more upset and then i talked to my aunt the sometimes crazy one but she was very supportive and told me that she didnt think that and that my uncle didnt either and it was wrong for him to yell at me like that so it kinda made me cool down ... but it remindes me that my family is fucked up like maybe i should have yelled at him about how he use to beat up his kids and made my dad preety much lose his mind but nooooooooo i try to look past that .... ok ive got my self worked up now and its not worth it so i think im gonna end this and focus on the wonderfull day ive had for anyone who wasted there time reading this happy canada day
hmm what else is going on right now in my life.. Brayden isnt walking yet but he said mama a lot today where he went a long period of not saying it hes finally feeling better he was sick realy bad last week and he had to go on antibiotics which wherent fun for him because he dosnt like to take medicine he is no longer scared of the rock and ride i got him for his brithday but he only plays with it when its like in the car postion he thinks its hilarious and it has a little trunk and he puts his stuffy in there... he is still on a list for daycare but we've had no luck yet the list are very long and because hes young theres not many ppl willing to take on someone his age
hmm my family is kinda blah ... my mom and i talk on the phone from now and then and that part is ok ... but my grandpa is annoying me and i'm preety much keep all contact at a bare minimum ... a few weeks ago i was walking his dog for him which i did for like a month twice a day and it was a pain but i did it because he had surgery and sometimes if it was raining stephen would drive me and we would walk the dog... so then of course my grandpa met stephen which i try and keep like my person life out of my familys life like i dont want to talk to them about who im dating and i think that they asume the worse and they get flash backs to siddiq and i
so then after that my grandpa was like getting pissy with me and stuff and i didnt know why but i ignored it and then the last day i walked the dog he asked to talk to me so i said ok and then he basically yelled at me about "being sexually active" and "sleeping around" which like one i dont sleep around and two i'm gonna be 21 and its non of ur buissness i was in shock to think my 75 year old grandpa was telling me off because he thinks im a whore ... i just turned around and left like i couldnt even say anything and i cried all the way home... which i wish i was strong enough to not care but i do care what ppl think maybe not what everyone thinks about me but my family i do and yeah its obvious i've had sex ... but i dont think im a whore like ive maybe made some poor choices on ppl i've dated but i'm 20 years old almost 21 i dont need someone to judge me and make me feel badly for it. like i tried to take it the best way and that he was just worried for me but the more i thought about it and pictured him telling me off for accusing me for something i'm not... it just made me more upset and then i talked to my aunt the sometimes crazy one but she was very supportive and told me that she didnt think that and that my uncle didnt either and it was wrong for him to yell at me like that so it kinda made me cool down ... but it remindes me that my family is fucked up like maybe i should have yelled at him about how he use to beat up his kids and made my dad preety much lose his mind but nooooooooo i try to look past that .... ok ive got my self worked up now and its not worth it so i think im gonna end this and focus on the wonderfull day ive had for anyone who wasted there time reading this happy canada day