past and whatever.
Chrystal's mom gave me their old computer on friday. the moniter sucks but it serfices for what i need it for. I am taking all my old journals and burning them but first i'm transfering all the information to a disk and once i've done that i will bury the disk somewhere. i don't know where yet but it will be hidden. i don't know why i decided to do this but i did. but going back through the entries it was really sad. I'd forgoten...a lot. A lot i didn't want to remeber. but it makes me a stronger person to remeber. just seeing the words i had written to describ the pain was like a twing in a scar in my heart. it hurts no where near as bad as the wound did, but it just reminds you how deep it was. but the past is the past and you learn from it. i had just forgoten how many times i had been thrown aside like a use rag doll. I've climbed above that though,and i've decided long ago that i'm not such a horriable person to live with, but learning to live with yourself is a hard thing to over come i refuse to back track.