Why does it hurt so much to live sometimes.
Sometimes I really don't want to live anymore. I don't really have anything to live for, except that I'm to chicken shit to acctully do anything about it. I really don't want to upset my friends, I don't want the attention from it. I just want the pain to go away. why won't the pain go away? why does it just get heavier and heavier year after year. I just wish I had someone with me. being alone so much is making me crazy. I'm better when I'm around people. I don't think about shit when I am around people. But I understand that people don't want to be with me all the time. I remeber times when cutting would make the pain on the inside feel less....consumeing. all that's left to do tonight is inhale deeply and exhale. go to sleep. sometimes......I wish.....well it doesn't really matter what i want I don't get it...do i ever? no....and why does ever one i know leave, or just forget to stay. and when it gets here all i can do is turn it to anger and say I hate you Joshua Dove, you did this to me and I hate you, I wish you to hell dear sir.