smash this crystal ball
I woke up this morning, and i feel crap. I look even worse, the fact that i have tryed looking nice in the past 3 months really might have something to do with it but i just feel totaly gross and crappy. it could just be part of my hangover....but i have so many friends who are just amazingly beautiful and have all these great clothes and the confedence i jsut don't have and haven't had for a while. yeah, i could get myself round the world if i wanted myself (just as long as it doesn't involve victoria bus station or national express), but i don't have the confedence to make myself look nice, because someone might come on to me, or i'll end up looking like a twat or whatever.
I'd love to have the confedence that dorna does, man she wouldn't look one bit out of place on sucide girls, thats how i'd like to look. yet, i'm not going to because no matter how much people tell me i look good, i don't feel it. I look in the mirror and i see the overweight little bitch that moved over here 2 years ago. and I've lost 3 stone since then. I'm doing 3 lots of 1 1/2 work outs each week, i watch what i'm eating. And i'm still feeling consistantly tired and i'm being a total bitch to the people i love.
maybe it's jsut the fact that i feel like i have so much to deal with right now, with the music factory stuff, and my course, and moving and working for mum, and everything it's getting to me so much. and i hate the way it's making me turn into a bitch.
so s huge sorry for all of those i've been a total bitch to. It is my fault and there isn't really an excuse i've jsut got so much on my plate.
I'd love to have the confedence that dorna does, man she wouldn't look one bit out of place on sucide girls, thats how i'd like to look. yet, i'm not going to because no matter how much people tell me i look good, i don't feel it. I look in the mirror and i see the overweight little bitch that moved over here 2 years ago. and I've lost 3 stone since then. I'm doing 3 lots of 1 1/2 work outs each week, i watch what i'm eating. And i'm still feeling consistantly tired and i'm being a total bitch to the people i love.
maybe it's jsut the fact that i feel like i have so much to deal with right now, with the music factory stuff, and my course, and moving and working for mum, and everything it's getting to me so much. and i hate the way it's making me turn into a bitch.
so s huge sorry for all of those i've been a total bitch to. It is my fault and there isn't really an excuse i've jsut got so much on my plate.